haha...first time blogging...had a blog laz time...dunno wat happened to it...decided to create a new one...listening to persis now...not many pple will understand this blog if you dunno me...erm...decided to talk crap in this blog...crap that is in my mind everyday...i dunno...it just keep cloggin up my mind...wonder if my mind has such a big space to store so many things...just understand the fact that SL dun wanna take me becoz she thinks that i can do it... still thinks that she shud haf at least told me... this saves everybody's breath...haha...she says that i disobeyed her and she dun even bother to scold me becoz she thinks that it's no use...erm...dotx lor...i dun care...i think that she shud at least tell me what to drill on...and probably just gimme a test at the end of sectionals lor...like this at least i'll work towards her target mar...haiz...shall suggest to her on monday's national anthem...
went home without a passport today...feel so bad...made daddy u-turn from the custom and went back to the BS...i think i am extreme bad...shall change from today onwards...must change...haiz...so dissapointed...i am totally forgetful these days...got into loads of troubles...carn get my mind workin since after SYF...
trying to get as far from band as possible nowadays...carn afford to waste time anymore...end-of-year paper is coming...if i dun work hard enuff den prob i carn go for band tour or tour with my family even...i think it's quite tough lor...as in i am not the total study kind of person...how can i sit down and study leh???aiya...i was late on thurs...late for band becoz i went to ask my angel to teach me chemistry...i'ld rather do punishment than to fail my chem paper...
ZJ says that i look very down these days...prob becoz i dun think that life is meaningful without band...kinda stressed up by the subject combinations and my studies in particularly...i am not the studying kind lor...i just carn live without band...haiz...budden how to study if I remain that siao in band??? *sobs*why must i choose between my studies and band?*sobs*
i think if i rest less these days shud be able to cover up every single bit of info that is to be examined... [what am i trying to do man??? sleep at 3am everyday probably...] total siaoness... haiz...
carn split myself into two...den one go for band one study...perfect wat...haiz...too bad i carn...haiz...quite troubled these days...thinking and thinking...about lots of stuff...the money that i owe YS...my subject comb tingy...band stuff...ASEAN DANCE...yadda...yadda...
haiz...very hard to spit out everything now... shall stop here... buaizzz...*muacks*
ps: i might not be able to update so often coz i haf loads of things waiting for me to do...