lalala...finish getting back my results le. did quite badly, but i think its because of me larh, so nobody to blame actually. don't know why lerh, i think i very very lazy, so shall work really hard during the hols and the rest of the year. afterall, its only this O level cert that i must really care about what. haha, so its gonna be a hard time. wish me all the best ba.
anyway, i am not going to attend band during the hols le. i hope nobody misunderstands me this time, because my results serves as the best evidence, its hard to let go larh, but i'll still have to do so. i hope you all don't blame me. to me, this is not called selfish, it's just that i don't have abother option. anyway do you all really think that i'll be able to let go completely? for all the four years of hard work? if you really think that i am that cruel, why not just reflect on what you guys have done to me? its not that i cannot accept facts, its just that you all like to put salt on people's wound.
anyway, i think that it doesn't matter anymore. nobody treats me like they did in the past. now that i've seen everybody's true side, i bet the conclusion is being made in everyone's heart. i don't blame you allfor treating me like that, because i was in the wrong too. but if you all think that all the fault lies in me only, then what i have to say is only that you guys don't understand me at all. i am sorry for what i have done wrongly, but sorry seems no cure now. a lot of things has happened, none of these can be amended. so we shall just let it past lar.
i don't know why i want to write all these. but i can imagine a lot of things happening. maybe this is just a prelude. but i really can't stand it anymore. i am not attempting to create any troubles, but i would just like to speak my mind. yar, i dont' know lar, very very blur now. yar...
Saturday, May 28, 2005
Monday, May 23, 2005
Death is scary. It just sends a chill down your spine, making you feel eerie and helpless.
just came back last night. attended a ceremony at the cheras crematorium yesterday morning. it was a simple ceremony, very few people attended. but i learnt a lot from that simple ceremony.
death, it is just a thing that we must all face. its a matter of time, whether early or late. i guess when one faces death of his beloved, all the weaknesses of one will be shown. well, i saw my grandfather shedding tears at the ceremony. that's not very normal, because he always appears strong in front of everybody. its really saddening to see it, but i guess its just life larh. from my grandfathers' movement i could sense his thinkings. he was thinking about my uncle, as well as my grandmother who passed away some years ago. in both situation, he could make no decision. they just left him like that.
anyhow, i guess death of another person creates an opportunity for us to reflect on ourselves. to reset our target in life so that we will not regret when we die away one day. haha, sounds wierd, but that's what i think. yar, we are always in search for true happiness in life. but what is it that we are looking for? money? maybe... but to me its more of love from others. i don't know, maybe you might not think the same, but i hope you know what are you are looking for.
good luck, may you get what you want.
just came back last night. attended a ceremony at the cheras crematorium yesterday morning. it was a simple ceremony, very few people attended. but i learnt a lot from that simple ceremony.
death, it is just a thing that we must all face. its a matter of time, whether early or late. i guess when one faces death of his beloved, all the weaknesses of one will be shown. well, i saw my grandfather shedding tears at the ceremony. that's not very normal, because he always appears strong in front of everybody. its really saddening to see it, but i guess its just life larh. from my grandfathers' movement i could sense his thinkings. he was thinking about my uncle, as well as my grandmother who passed away some years ago. in both situation, he could make no decision. they just left him like that.
anyhow, i guess death of another person creates an opportunity for us to reflect on ourselves. to reset our target in life so that we will not regret when we die away one day. haha, sounds wierd, but that's what i think. yar, we are always in search for true happiness in life. but what is it that we are looking for? money? maybe... but to me its more of love from others. i don't know, maybe you might not think the same, but i hope you know what are you are looking for.
good luck, may you get what you want.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Life is fragile. Treasure it, don't waste it.
well, one of my uncle just passed away due to hap B.Quite shocking, but i guess its just part and parcel of life larh. i dare not comment on anything, since i am not reall close to him. but i feel is that sometimes in life, we just don't get to choose.
yar, exams just ended. supposed to feel relaxed this weekend, but this piece of news just came. feeling neutral now, not very happy, not very sad. this weekend is a long one, where i can happily enjoy and do things that i did not have time to do. quite shuang larh, except that i m going kl tonight to attend the funeral.
honestly, nobody told me anything. up till yesterdy when i got to know that my mum went to kl to see my uncle. scary sia, i thought why my mum ran away again. anyway, had a great dinner last night. yar, had steak from australia. yum yum. then after dinner i followed my dad back home. feels lonely without seeing my mother, but i hope tha she's coping well now.
anyway, later i am suppose to go wash the clothes. yar, and do more housework. since my mum is not around at the moment. very tiring, but i think this will be the only way for me to help my mum get back to normal. i bet she's sad. the previous time when my grandmother died, we didn't get to see her also. it came too sudden larh. well, what have i got to say? life's just like that, you take it or leave it. its not up to you anyway.
haiz, enough of the bad things. we should just let unhappy things pass and look forward to happy things that are coming along. haha, my mid-years was not that bad afterall. passed my a maths by 1 mark, got c5 for english. history was a bit unexpected. failed. 42 marks. but nothing much larh. i was rather happy to know that i passed my structered for the first time. hee. haha.
results are going to come back very soon. i don't think i will do very well for chem. for the rest, i'll just accept what it is lar. i think i have done my best. yar. i have.
anyway, this week quite slack. have been going out very often these days. haha. newae sly coming to the school this coming friday. i look forward to seeing him. yay! lalala, i am in desperate for money to buy CDs. anybody that wants to make me happy can do so by donating some money. haha, just kidding larh. just realised that i haven bought CDs for a very long time. and i plan to buy quite a lot of the albums only.
haiyo, why must time pass so quickly? kae, cannot blog le, must go and wash clothes le. buaizzz...
well, one of my uncle just passed away due to hap B.Quite shocking, but i guess its just part and parcel of life larh. i dare not comment on anything, since i am not reall close to him. but i feel is that sometimes in life, we just don't get to choose.
yar, exams just ended. supposed to feel relaxed this weekend, but this piece of news just came. feeling neutral now, not very happy, not very sad. this weekend is a long one, where i can happily enjoy and do things that i did not have time to do. quite shuang larh, except that i m going kl tonight to attend the funeral.
honestly, nobody told me anything. up till yesterdy when i got to know that my mum went to kl to see my uncle. scary sia, i thought why my mum ran away again. anyway, had a great dinner last night. yar, had steak from australia. yum yum. then after dinner i followed my dad back home. feels lonely without seeing my mother, but i hope tha she's coping well now.
anyway, later i am suppose to go wash the clothes. yar, and do more housework. since my mum is not around at the moment. very tiring, but i think this will be the only way for me to help my mum get back to normal. i bet she's sad. the previous time when my grandmother died, we didn't get to see her also. it came too sudden larh. well, what have i got to say? life's just like that, you take it or leave it. its not up to you anyway.
haiz, enough of the bad things. we should just let unhappy things pass and look forward to happy things that are coming along. haha, my mid-years was not that bad afterall. passed my a maths by 1 mark, got c5 for english. history was a bit unexpected. failed. 42 marks. but nothing much larh. i was rather happy to know that i passed my structered for the first time. hee. haha.
results are going to come back very soon. i don't think i will do very well for chem. for the rest, i'll just accept what it is lar. i think i have done my best. yar. i have.
anyway, this week quite slack. have been going out very often these days. haha. newae sly coming to the school this coming friday. i look forward to seeing him. yay! lalala, i am in desperate for money to buy CDs. anybody that wants to make me happy can do so by donating some money. haha, just kidding larh. just realised that i haven bought CDs for a very long time. and i plan to buy quite a lot of the albums only.
haiyo, why must time pass so quickly? kae, cannot blog le, must go and wash clothes le. buaizzz...
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
mwahahaha...and now exams are finally over!!!
wohoo!!!
hee, a bit the high today, just went out with yvonne, xiang ting, fang xuan, liying and eunice. since its after exams, we gave ourselves a treat to the sakae sushi buffet. haha, so full now, and i realise that budweiser's rum raisin is not as nice as other brands.
haha, then went to take neoprints. it has been donkey years since i last took a proper neoprint. feel so achieved. will upload the picture some day, when i am free,
yar, then i have to thanks xiangting's dad for fetching me back for the second time. very pai seh lerh, argh!!! anyway, that's all for my programme today larh. yesterday was bio paper, so i didn't go to school for any reason. woke up at ten, watched some soapy drama, then went out to meet eevien. haha, dinner was enjoyable larh, then chatted for a while. got back to the hostel at seven sharp, haha, so heng. anyway, did maths during prep and went to watch tv.
i really cannot stand the sec 3s PRC scholars le. they were doing all sorts of things to irritate me. and fortunately, i didn't scold them or make any reaction. yar, that's it. they got me so irritated and then i didn't feel like doing maths anymore. i think they lacked discipline and self-awareness. not only in their behaviour but also their attitude. yar, and i think they are the only ones that can be compared with our m'sian sec 1s this year. all as irritating.
haiz, i don't know why this year i really cannot stand those that make moves which i dislike. i mean like whatever larh, just don't disturb others can le. and yet B block is filled with those loud people and inconsiderate people. argh! luckily i finished my exams early, so that i don't flare up. stupid!!!
anyway, i think this mid-years came and went very quickly. yar, and it feels great! anyway, yar, i think its a good thing that we get this experience. i mean like its just a trial. so i wont' feel very bad if i failed. yup, i think that whatever it is, i've put in my best. if my results are bad, i'll just work harder for prelims larh.
haha, enough about school work. yeah, sly coming next friday!!! i am so so so excited. i think i am just being dumb again, but i think he come very good larh. haha. again. hee, sorry larh, but i still love tony sun the most. yar, and i found out that actually i like stephen fung. yar, he's very very dashing!!! haha, gen-y cops that day was fantastic. anyway, yar, i think i am a bit the flower-hearted. but nvm, who cares? as long as i like can already.
oh yar, tml going to sentosa. whee, gonna cycle. and eat nice food. anyway, no time le, must go and take my bath, if not later lok chi will be mad at me! haha, like i care like that. but nevermind, i ought to be a good girl. yar, so this is the end. i'll update more this weekend.
tataa!
wohoo!!!
hee, a bit the high today, just went out with yvonne, xiang ting, fang xuan, liying and eunice. since its after exams, we gave ourselves a treat to the sakae sushi buffet. haha, so full now, and i realise that budweiser's rum raisin is not as nice as other brands.
haha, then went to take neoprints. it has been donkey years since i last took a proper neoprint. feel so achieved. will upload the picture some day, when i am free,
yar, then i have to thanks xiangting's dad for fetching me back for the second time. very pai seh lerh, argh!!! anyway, that's all for my programme today larh. yesterday was bio paper, so i didn't go to school for any reason. woke up at ten, watched some soapy drama, then went out to meet eevien. haha, dinner was enjoyable larh, then chatted for a while. got back to the hostel at seven sharp, haha, so heng. anyway, did maths during prep and went to watch tv.
i really cannot stand the sec 3s PRC scholars le. they were doing all sorts of things to irritate me. and fortunately, i didn't scold them or make any reaction. yar, that's it. they got me so irritated and then i didn't feel like doing maths anymore. i think they lacked discipline and self-awareness. not only in their behaviour but also their attitude. yar, and i think they are the only ones that can be compared with our m'sian sec 1s this year. all as irritating.
haiz, i don't know why this year i really cannot stand those that make moves which i dislike. i mean like whatever larh, just don't disturb others can le. and yet B block is filled with those loud people and inconsiderate people. argh! luckily i finished my exams early, so that i don't flare up. stupid!!!
anyway, i think this mid-years came and went very quickly. yar, and it feels great! anyway, yar, i think its a good thing that we get this experience. i mean like its just a trial. so i wont' feel very bad if i failed. yup, i think that whatever it is, i've put in my best. if my results are bad, i'll just work harder for prelims larh.
haha, enough about school work. yeah, sly coming next friday!!! i am so so so excited. i think i am just being dumb again, but i think he come very good larh. haha. again. hee, sorry larh, but i still love tony sun the most. yar, and i found out that actually i like stephen fung. yar, he's very very dashing!!! haha, gen-y cops that day was fantastic. anyway, yar, i think i am a bit the flower-hearted. but nvm, who cares? as long as i like can already.
oh yar, tml going to sentosa. whee, gonna cycle. and eat nice food. anyway, no time le, must go and take my bath, if not later lok chi will be mad at me! haha, like i care like that. but nevermind, i ought to be a good girl. yar, so this is the end. i'll update more this weekend.
tataa!