hey everybody! sorry arh, nowadays really busy rotting, never update so often le. haha, anyway, new year pass le, so I am going to move house soon. yup, these days busy doing up all the stuff, clean the house, pack and move.

haha, JAE results are coming out on the 3rd of march. hopefully everybody gets to go to wherever they want. I wish to get into TP, yar, but somehow I don't seem to feel that I am going to be there leh. aiyo, I think I rot too much le larh. anyway, if I get into TP then I get to play for appa 10. yar, because if I get there then I will continue to stay in sg.

Appa 10 is coming. so exciting, I wish I can go back and play. but I scared that I no longer play that well and I might end up being the one that pulls down the band leh. How? I never play for so long already, a bit the rusty sia. 7th nite of july, oh man, that seems so far and yet so near. I hope that I can go back, if I can't, I hope I can watch all of you play.

hrm, why do I rot so much that I no longer feel like working arh? haha, I think my brain cells are no longer in production le, simply because the old ones haven't been used. haha, luckily that day when I met ky online I got to clear some of the old brain cells. haha, yar, I solved half a physics question. so farnie, feels like physics so fun like that.

actually, honestly speaking, I miss thoses days that we had lessons. yeah, those hours, even if not used to listen to what the teachers are actually talking about, are actually spent rather meaningfully. yeah, I mean like it feels different at home, because there is nobody nagging and nagging behind while you are just doing work of your own. oh man, I miss cai.

haha, also, I miss times when after one whole day of lesson, we sit down in this air-conditioned room playing music. I guess the most that I miss is staying in the boarding school. because me parents will never know what I have been doing. and I get to do my own stuff at my own time.

haha, what's the point of looking back when I have been through all these? maybe just trying to recall some of the good old times. haha, have to go le.

anyway, to all the people out there, jiayou! I love all of you so much! lalala, tataa!

lalala, don't know why, but I feel retarded. yar, the feeling of emptiness is back in my heart again. can't help to control, but anyhow, I feel really useless.

went for this feng shui talk in citibank on monday. the whatever master said that I am scared of loneliness, darkness and some other stuff. he also said that I am too soft-hearted. not my fault right? haiz, and he also said that I have weak heart and my blood is no good. don't understand what this means, but I think I am just unhealthy. haha, and I am a bing2 huo3. yar, suppose to mean that I am some fire of the sun, something like that larh. who cares right?

I hope that by doing something good will help me chase away all the bad thoughts that I have. I don't like to be a baddy, but I am scared that I was one in my past life. oh my god, may all the kindness stay and all the bad stuff go away.

hrm... so how's everyone's new year? I think its a very bad timing for the results to come out this fri. yar, because everybody will be drowned in the CNY mood. haiz, very the nervous arh... because I think I might get very lousy grades. haiz, then I will let everybody down. yar, all the hopes pinned on me, all the disappointment...

anyhow, whatever is done, its done. there's no point for me to look back since I can't change anything. what I should do is to plan for my future and decide sensibly what I should study and where should I aim. yup, and that's what I should focus in doing...

haha, these days I really miss nanyang a lot. oh yar, by the way, during the 1st day of new year, I met the OM mr.tan just outside fullerton. haha, so farnie, he was crossing the road while I am in the car. anyway, yar, and then I met Yanru at clark quey. haha, these people just reminds me of nanyang, don't you agree? oh yar, and last week when I went shopping with my cousin, I met alisa and keepin. haha, nanyang...

hrm, I tell you arh, I can't wait for myself to be 18. yeah man, when I reach 18, there are just so many things that I can do. also, when I reach 18, I will have much more freedom and such. actually 17 also not that bad larh. at least I can take driving test. but still, there are so many things that I want to do when I am 18. kk, shall be patient...

basically the previous paragraph is just some crap larh. you know why? its because that day the whole chin family went to clark quey. and we were standing outside ministry of sound. we didn't enter simply because I was underage. yar, and we merely stood OUTSIDE m.o.s. and then walked away. what the hell larh, that's why I want to be 18. heh, and arh, we were just standing outside indochine, trying to peep through the people and see what's in there. whoa, I tell you arh, that will be the place that I want to be in on my 18th birthday night. haha...

hrm... I wish for the star, the moon and the sun... yup, time to say good bye. I wish I could write more about my life these days. but apparently I don't think I can. yar, long story. haha, tataa!