RAWR!

wahahaha, finally the bloody business venture thingy is over. now I waiting for the presentation thingy only larh. luckily I am not the presenter, if not I bet the whole team fail in the whole thing coz I am just not in the mood of presenting.

anyway, these days very busy. gonna have mid-course exams le. yar, then I got my thesis paper, my accounting e-assignment... and etcetera... oh my god, I will be so exhausted... haha, and all thanks to my love for money, I got into the student ambassador thingy. not say I go just because of money larh, but money is definately one of the factors larh.

aiya, passion is the thing that kills me. in secondary school I had a dumb passion for music and band. and now its the passion to serve. what a funny person I am. well, actually I think passion is very very important. because it gives you the driving force to complete all your work and to materialise your dreams.

haha, going to present le! wOw, I shall hope for a good one from Ryan. yeah, if not I am going to mince his meat personally. thanks to all from the Anonymus team that contributed to this business competition. Thank you for all the efforts and time spent. although we might not be the ultimate winner, but at least we won those time bonding with each other. Thank you once again.

k larh, chao!

hey, and now I feel finally at home. yeah, coz now my house got streamyx line. but then arh, the thing is that the modem is in my bro's room, so right, I have to sit at this awkward spot and go online. RAWR, this makes me a spastic person. yeah.

anyway, the thing that I look forward to every single school day is to take a look at this guy which looks a bit like hong junyang. yeah, and his surname is ang too! haha, if I can, I will try to post his picture on this blog. ruijing did me this real great favour in capturing a very nice picture of him. yeah, and its quite good to get to see somebody that looks like junyang in this small student population of less than 300. haha, and that's what make my day.

anyway, now is exam period and I am like caught up with all my revisions. yeah, might not be able to blog as often as I used to, but I think I will try to blog as often as I can since I will have to go to the computer lab very often to help ruijing to peep at her guo pin chao. yeah, and hope that I can see junyang. haha... this is such an idiot thing to do... and this makes me a real member of the flower eater association. yeah, the president is ruijing larh... and it is an affiliation with foon yew's flower eater association too. haha...

hrm, today a bit the shocked cause junyang wore this pink shirt. I mean like of all colours why pink larh? and later during break I realise that the printing was actually takashi's tofu shop in Initial D. yeah, this makes me think that he is an Initial D fan and this is great! haha, I am so going to get to know him... haha, I mean as a friend larh, who ask ryan to know him... hehe, and ryan owes me one... yeah...

kae larh, gotta do my work now... tataa!

PS: I think this is a flower eating post. haha...

hey!

I think I did something wrongly to the template. anyhow, it just didn't appear as what it is suppose to be larh. yar, can't be bothered about it le, just want to put it back to the most normal way I can then jiu ke yi le.

haha, now I am at my dad's office, sitting down here alone trying to complete some of my school work. surprisingly, I don't feel that the workload now is a lot larh. yar, maybe because I am used to not handing in homework on time when I was in nanyang. haha, but then now the lecturers are so good that they just let you decide your date due. yeah, and if you are late then you are gone. haha, that's why so relaxed.

hrm, talking about school arh, I think that Sunway is really a wierd school. yeah, and with wierd management. yar, my business proposal was rejected like AGAIN larh. and I am very angry. yeah, because I have to redo it AGAIN! argh, and the bloody group thinks that only I can write the whole proposal. and therefore I am writing it AGAIN.

argh, angry... I don't understand how other's think. well, there is this guy in my class that is particularly weird. he is a foreigner. well, he don't seem to go against me directly in class, but I think he just hates me to the core. maybe its his personality, but I still think that its weird. yeah, if he don't agree with me then say so larh! actually I don't eliminate the possibility that he bu shuang me because my studies are better than him. yeah, coz he is that kind of people. KS marh... haha, just a typical one. argh, not saying that everybody is like that from that country larh, but that's what everybody in JB will say about those people what.

seriously arh, I never met anybody from that country that are like him lorh. bleah, he is just an irritating character in the class larh... luckily I am finishing my course this year and not 4 years later. I think if 4 years then I might as well kill myself. but other than him the others in my class are nice people, very funny and very... funny... haha...

I enjoy my class now, which consists of 10 students. yup, that's how small a class can get. but I like this kind of environment where relationships between each individuals are easily established. haha, and we can practically talk about everything under the sun because we already sort of know what everybody is thinking about. haha, this is a cosy class...

aiya, don't know why but I just can't stop talking. I think its because I am deprived of a person to talk to larh. well, even if the class is so borderless, it still takes time for close relationships to occur. especially now my class got boys arh, not everything in the heart can be discussed. anyway, I still miss certain people that existed in my life before. haiz, just feel like taking 1 day off school and go out with all of you!

haha, I start to dream again... haha, lalala, got to go le larh... chao!

Yo!

not very happy today. last night my dad went for a drink and came back real late. I think he enjoys his life this way, but my mum just don't agree with him. so they quarrelled and began a cold war. I don't know who to side with, and I just wish to stay neutral. yeah, I understand my dad as much as I understand my mum. but my mum is just being a bit extreme and my dad just gives in. yar, and so I am troubled.

and my brother is giving me headaches also. just because I like to talk to my parents, he thinks that they don't care about him. haha, I will laugh till I die larh. I mean like how old is him? and he don't even know when to be matured. this is such an embaressment to me. anyway, I bet he cares for my dad simply because my dad gives him money. yeah, because if he really cares, he shouldn't lose his temper in front of my dad every single time my dad talks to him. well, maybe he's just like my mum larh, but I dare to say that he is obviously 10 million times worst than my mum, because he simply don't think as a human being. he thinks that the whole entire family should listen to him and live under his terror. haha, and all thanks to this, I became his victim for 17 years.

sometimes I just feel like going back to nanyang where I stay in the boarding school. at least I get to be myself and not somebody that puts on a mask. its really very tiring. its not that I don't want to stay with my family, but I just don't feel like pretending to be somebody when I am at home. I will have to make everybody happy. I know that my dad has to make everybody happy as well. and my brother and my mum will just have total control over our moods and our feelings. I don't like this.

well, when everybody is in good mood, then things are just perfect. but if either my mum or my brother is not in the correct mood, that will be the end of my world. yeah, and both of them will just spark off a war, in which only me and my dad will be the ones dead. yeah, I don't know if I should tell them about handling their own emotions properly, even so I dare not tell them about this. I only wish silently that one day they will understand and not put me in a hard spot.

I have got a new phone. yeah, its quite cool but I am really not in the mood of talking about it. things are just not that pleasant. however, I still want to thank my dad for getting me a new phone. I promise to really do my best in my studies this time round and I will get a business degree from monash in approx 4 years time.

I have got a new bed as well. haha, probably because I am getting all these that sparked off my brother's discontentment towards me. never mind larh, not as if this is the first time. I don't care about what he thinks, as long as I don't feel guilty of not performing up to standards. I will continue to do my best in my work, wish me luck!

haha, next monday got the student ambassador interview thingy. I am not really scared of it larh, maybe just looking forward to it. undang test on sunday. hope that it will be fine. well, tonnes of work waiting to be done. shall not elaborate any further. chao!

hey yoz!

haha, I very happy today. becoz of 3 things. yeah man, 1stly because I scored 42.5/50 for my first ever accounting test. haha, this sounds like very good like that, but I don't really think so larh. the highest in class is 44, and I hope to break the record next time. don't know why but I think that I am becoming more and more competetive le. there are goods and bads about it larh, but I think I still have to work hard. yeah, I can't afford to fail this time.

maybe because out of nanyang le, but I think that actually its good to have some competition. haha, anyway, I think that I ought to work harder. yeah, this is a chance for me to shine, and I hope I can do a good job out of it. if not papa and mummy will be sad... and me too...

haha, 2nd thing of the day is that I am getting a new handphone!!! haha, the 7270, part of the l'amour series by nokia. and I am going to get the flower one... haha, so classy... hee, actually my bro also got larh, but his is not as pretty as mine! haha, don't know what's wrong with him, but I hope things will be alright after he got his phone, if not my days will be bad.

anyway, the 3rd and the last thing that spiced my day is the interaction in class today. yay! I am happy that the class is getting livelier, if not I will freeze to death larh. haha, anyway today is clubs recruitment day. yeah, I applied for student ambassador in the end, hope that will get through. hee, I don't really go there just because of the money larh, don't think I so money-minded leh...

haha, anyway, got some guy in this school that looks a bit like junyang form the back and the side. haha, the front is merely pasable. haha, but he's in ausmat... too bad...

kae larh, gotta go! tataa! chao!

oh blardy hell, the post that I have been typing just went off and now I am typing this all over again...

kalau tuan-tuan tak mahu apa-apa kemalangan berlaku ketika anda memandu, anda hendaklah mematuhi beberapa peraturan-peraturan yang amat penting. yang pertama, anda perlu tahu DADA... saya tak tahu apa itu ceramah tentang, tapi saya tahu saya sedang belajar tentang undang-undang dan saya hendak mangambil pemeriksaan secepat-cepat mungkin. bahasa melayu adalah sebagai bahasa yang amat susah terhadap saya, kerana saya dah lama tak berkomunikasi dengan bahasa ini. saya akan mati lah...

bleah, attended the undang lecture on sunday. whoa, I am quite pleased that I merely fell asleep for half the time, haha, at least that is better that sleeping the whole lecture... which most people did. haha, registered the test on this coming sunday, and I haven't even read the book. haha, luckily its 50 questions, but the sad thing is 42 is pass. yeah, means I can jollywell fail the blardy thing. and so saya akan mati...

haha, this is such a spastic opening. but anyway, just finished my accounting test. assets=liabilities+owner's equity. yeah, I am only good at this equation. and most likely I will suffer during this first accounting test in my whole entire life. who the hell know the difference in 'prepare a trial balance' and 'formally balance the above accounts'? and I just balanced all the accounts. haha, I didn't even foot the thing, and I never cared to prepare the trial balance. hehe, maybe accounting is just too new for me.

well, I am suppose to research about two things this afternoon. one about euthanasia and another about the pharoahs and Queens in Egypt. wOw, this is spastic, and I am suppose to do tonnes of writing... bleah, English is fun but not with all the PW and Lit elements. yeah, and now I am doing ten thousand PWs. to be frank arh, I didn't do As because I didn't like GP. and now I am doing PW. oh man, what's the diff?

stupid larh, I am still contempulating whether to apply for the student ambassador thingy or not. yeah, basically its same as a PSGL except the fact that I will get paid RM5 per hour for my services. yarh, maybe I should try, if not won't have chance. haha, like what zhang ah ma said in Sec 2. but if I apply also means that I can stop thinking of going back to play for appa 10. yeah man, making decisions is so not my cup of tea.

got to go. hope that I have enough information for the discussion tomorrow. yeah, bless me. and I got new bed arriving today. haha, ivy, you can come over anytime! but make sure you tell me hor... haha, and come as often as possible larh... haha... lalala... whee...

anyway, I am sick of being alone larh. yeah, this is stupid. actually I am not alone, but I just haven't find anyone that I can really talk to. this makes me sad. yeah, because I will start to miss all the people that has left my life. haha, just can't believe this, I have suited into this environment without having much difficulties.