PEKCHEK!!!

argh... mislook another item on my timetable!!! what the hell... I thought I signed up for accounts tutorial on thursday... but then the thing didn't even exist!!! oh man, now I must pack my friday up with all 4 tutorials... and all this rubbish is caused because of my own problem. I mean like, how can I mislook so many things??? and sommor all at the last minute... haiz... guess that's just 'retribution' for not looking at my timetable properly. haiz... real angry at myself... but nothing much can be done... luckily 2 of the tutorials are at the same venue... so at least save a bit of my footsteps... hee...

whoa... my heart aches now. erm, not as in the kind where somebody broke my heart, but the kind where it is physically pain and cannot breathe those kind. don't know why this happens. but this situation has been existing since upper secondary. oh my tian, does that mean that I have bad heart? erm... think too much. Aww... but it really hurts a lot. and cannot breathe too hard, if not lagi teruk. haiz... why today so pekchek?

anyway, bought accounts textbook today. haha, so funny, the criteria in determining whether one book is worth its value actually depends on the duration that I am going to use it. like accounts, I know that I will be using it for introductory B next sem and I will be majoring it, so I bought it. haha, but then management and statistics, I am still ponding my thoughts over it, just to try and see if I can get any from wy yeen. haha, even if its older edition, erm, I think that's good enough. haha, at least I never carry a photostated one to lecture lorh. and as she told me, its only for display larh. so it doesn't matter that much. haha...

Aww... my heart really aches a lot. shall go rest... if not later I die also nobody knows. *choi* hee... joking larh... oh yar, and I realise that the whole area around my eyes are 'blackening'. argh... have to go and rest le! chao!

Managing People and Organisation lecture ended half and hour earlier because the studies online thingy doesn't work. heh, that's why I am here... anyway, today is the 2nd last day of february. erm, and the posts this month are still lesser than last. haha, nevermind... I should continue flooding crap down here. hee...

erm, last night I used my auntie's webcam. haha, just to let miss stupidity look at my cute cute face. hrm, and its a little unfair... because only she gets to see me and I don't get to see her. as usual larh, acting cute in front of camera... anyway, I didn't change a lot what... so not much of surprise to see me in webcam or anything. haha, but the webcam is blur larh. haiz, so sad my labtop don't have in-built webcam... if not I can bring it to school and come online... hee... but me not planning to buy neither... want to see my face then ask me out larh... hee...

chatted with shifu last night over the phone. updated a lot of things about school. hrm, sunway JB is really having fewer and fewer people. erm, guess that applies for all the pre-u courses, because of our results... sad to say, but I think it takes some time for the school's performance to pick up one lorh... erm... not like say as long as you open that course then the results will be as expected what... nothing in life is like that one larh...

hrm, shifu's class is rather small... so don't have the luxury to be like us, can choose our own ideal timetable. erm, everything is sort of planned... and thus it doesn't differ much from college. hrm, pros and cons? guess its the flexibility of time that spoils her uni life. other than that... I think studying in JB is much better because you get to be at home, pay lesser fees and get more lecturer's attention. furthermore, its in a more homely environment, so basically it is more closed up and easier to adapt. to be honest, I am still extremely unfamiliar with this campus larh...

haiz... probably also because of my 'shy-at-first' attitude, I don't get to know this school well yet. not very daring to get to know many people yet. and don't dare to stray around too often... scared that once I get lost, then I don't know where to go. haiz... sad life... must learn how to be independant and outgoing... so that I can survive... haiz...

aiyah... lazy to type leh... want to go blog-surfing liao... chao!

haha... going to post something on this last day of my holidays.

well, its officially ending today. kind of she bu de this kind of life where I get to slack everyday and do all the things under the sun. haha, but it will get a little boring once you've had it for a long time larh. just like me now, growing moss and roots already. time to freshen up and get moving along with life.

guess my body is rather reactive to the fact that lesson is starting tml, because I just cannot stop sweating on my palms and my foot. erm... don't know what to do about this irritating medical condition, but I am going to pray hard and hope that the condition will be alright as I grow older. haiz, I don't enjoy having watery palms... ergh... it feels lousy.

anyway, posting once again because I really can't stand the fact that this month I've only posted such little posts. hee... what a wierd thing to do. still, have to crap sommor because I just feel like doing so larh.

feeling a little wierd. its like having nothing to do but yet something keeps hogging your mind. its that wierd. I can't really describe it in words, because no word can fit exactly into the picture. anyway, start to realise that certain things meant much more than what I thought it meant to me. the feeling of losing it is bothering me, because I never knew that it meant so much to me. that's the feeling. I don't know if I can convey the message clearly, but somehow I think this is the best I can get. understand it or not, its up to you lorh.

hey tinghui! yar, I drive to school everyday. and sometimes its like nightmare to me. haha, because the traffic condition do get out of hand sometime. but anyway, I regard this as one of the challenges that I face while living in an all new environment larh. hee... oh yar, and I don't think I can help you tell suchin to stop watching drama lehzzz... because I am one drama fan too!

Ivy! hey dear, glad that you tagged. quite a wasted opportunity that we don't get to meet up during CNY. well, nevermind larh, we can always meet up whenever we can. I might be in Sg to watch phantom. want join me? heh, in any case, feel free to kacau me in KL during your hols lorh... all the best!

haha... just looked at my blog and decided to blog sommor this month since I only posted 5 posts so far... hee, a bit the siao siao... previously talked about losing the ability to yack yack, then now can crap here... lalala...

just received a testimonial from an ex-classmate on friendster. hrm, this 'friend' of mine, appeared and disappeared kind of a sudden. not to say that I am criticizing her larh, but then arh, if she ever treated me as a friend, please always be there. yup, because of some incident where I got totally ignored by her, now kind of pissed because out of a sudden she came round and ask if I am fine. complicated feelings. don't know, whenever I think of her, I got that feeling of being used, because I can't feel the care and the concern of a friend from her.

ok, just posting some rants here larh. don't bother to think of who this person is. the main point that I am jotting this down is just to reflect my feelings right now larh. also, I think that friends shouldn't be like that lorh. you don't only appear when you need help yourself. always be there. don't play hide and seek because you will never know once you hid yourself, when will you be found again. this is purely my own thoughts larh, its ok if you don't agree with me...

anyway, shifu called in the afternoon. updated things happening in JB and killed of some time. stayed in the house the whole day, watching tv, sleeping, folding clothes and blogging. haha, somehow I guess I should treasure this day, because lessons are going to start and I don't think I will ever have that time to slack like that.

sms-ed weelian, asked him about his timetable but apparently not getting any reply from him. well, maybe I will be the only sesat student on monday, but who cares, I can always make friends everywhere... oh crap, I am being rubbishy... not quite used to being talkative nowadays. kind of mind about my image in front of people. haha, so probably decide to live extremely low profile lorh. or if monday I suddenly siao then I will go and yack yack... haha...

waiting for princess hours to be shown on 8tv 16 mins later. haha, because of some weird reason, I am kind of attracted to this serial. watch and watch and still can watch one... haha... so funny. oh yar, I want to watch hua yang and wei xiao pasta too... gees, even before school start, I am already thinking of what discs I want to buy le. argh, damn sinful...

k larh... going to log off soon. all the best!

when emptiness fills your heart, what do you do? you eat and eat so much so that you get to fill up all the empty space in your heart? or you sleep so much that you forget about the emptiness? well, then I guess Chinese New Year is the best time because you get good food plus holiday.

haha, after days of uncontrollable eating and unlimited sleeping, guess I already gone case le. erm, don't know the reason causing my emptiness. is it that I don't know? or is it that I chose to not know it? well, there isn't any point to look into this question. it will just be a waste of time eventually.

anyway, kind of envy those people that get to go back to jb during the holidays. haha, even if I spent my holidays together with my family as well, but yet the feeling is just different because we are all not at home. suppose to get used to this some years ago, but somehow still feel sad when I bid farewell to them. oh my shen, I really salute those that can study in some faraway foreign land man...

well well, university life officially starts next monday. I think I am really careless, because I forgot to enrol for business statistics computer lab tutorial. haha, so when I realised this extremely shocking fact last night, went to do reparations to my timetable. so now my timetable is a bit luan, because my intended session is full and hence I must make do with whatever that is left for me. oh man, pekchek. furthermore, I am not even sure of whether I am being enrolled in the LAN unit or not. haha, what a sesat student.

so new year just came and went by. probably because of the steel fact that school is starting next week, the attention fell onto lessons instead of the usually-much-anticipated Chinese New Year. haha, furthermore we celebrate New Year with the same people every year larh, so not much of surprises, just doing things as usual. eat, take angpau, eat, sleep, sit in the car, travel up and down, eat and sleep. phew, kind of glad that now I am waiting for lessons to begin, at least I can stop eating and resume back to some kind of usual life.

erm... the ability to yack and yack in a post is starting to fade gradually. nowadays have to think of what to post, instead of just sitting down in front of the computer and type type type. haha, is it because there are certain restrictions to the things that I mention in this blog? hrm, guess a little of it has to do with that larh. but basically I just have more interesting and important things to do. haha, and I cannot continue typing whenever my palms starts to sweat.

total full of rubbish. looking forward to a packed weekend of visiting around and eating around. haha, oh yar, now this house got astro leh! haha, so not so boring already. erm, best wishes to all those that are beginning school on monday. wish me luck for not being sesat again!

Phew, at last I finished refurnishing and unpacking! yay!

haha, blogging from a different computer and a different place now. first let me explain why I am blogging from a different computer. its not becuase my new labtop crashed or what hor... *choi* its becuase the house don't have router. ok, the basic streamyx package don't give you a router for free larh. so obviously you have to purchase your own. and that's why there's no wireless and I am too lazy to unplug and plug in the cables. and secondly why I am blogging from a different place is because I am now in KL. orientation starts tml and thus I moved myself from JB to KL. yeah...

anyway, one day before I left, had steamboat with aaron, jiajun, huiyee and ruijing. erm, all thanks to my so called 'popularity', apparently only these few people free to 'entertain' me. haha, but nevermind larh. I live a low profile in school. heh... oh yar, thanks to the 4 of them for the perfume. heh, love it a lot! because it is BLUE! lalala, blue is a great colour!

hrm, forgot to bring my offer letters and acceptance docs. oh man, freaked out totally but decided to let mummy sent it through courier tml. yeah, essentially only the acceptance document 1 is important and needs to be used on thursday. phew, so lucky. if not I don't know which extend I will be freaked out till lorh.

very tired after days of shopping and unpacking. basically trying to get the condo into shape so that it is comfortable. haha, so funny, can get tired until the legs want to come out liddat. but still achieved larh, because the house is good now! haha, at least all the hard work gets paid off.

tml going to school early. haha, because I don't know how long I need to get there. so going to start early and reach early in case no parking. hee... so exciting!

shall sleep now, if not cannot wake up le larh... officially ending my rotting days and resuming my hectic school life after CNY! woohoo! haha, don't think there's anything for me to feel happy about right?

*poof* heh, how's the new look of my blog?

ok, now this blog is back to its simple and blue style, something that I guess I like the most. however, I haven't put any music yet. haha, probably you can tell me what sort of music should be linked, then I will try my best to put it here.

other than changing the template of this blog, I have also been updating photos in my several accounts. erm, a bit the late larh, considering that its february already. anyway, its photos on my Shanghai trip and the visit to the eye of Malaysia. got so fed up uploading that I think I only uploaded less than 20 today. ok, feel a bit cheated because I just read that friendster only allow us to post 50 pictures per month. rrRRrr, should have got to know this on the 31st, then I have 50 more chances to upload pictures.

haha, actually I don't look good in pictures. heh, but then I like to take pictures because I think that pictures help you take down things happening in the past so that you can review them next time. erm, pictures to me don't mean only those with people inside. I mean like, I don't understand my parent's thinking that you only take pictures when there are 'main characters' to be captured. haha, sometimes I like to take abstract pictures, just to capture the 'feeling' that I want. hrm, am I being wierd to do so?

after one whole day of tiring my labtop, I decided to let it rest for a while. haha, and I also want my eyes to rest a while after staring at this screen. I don't want to land myself with glasses again! haha... chao!

ok, blogging again after a night's sleep. heh, slept well? no... don't know why, but then don't seem to be able to fall asleep at night these days. haha, and then in daytime, I fall asleep easily. what is this rubbish larh... probably also one of the rotting effects. anyway, nowadays listening to yes 933 and gary's new disc. quite nice to hear his new songs, even though not so much of his songs are blues this time. those kind of noisy new year songs are all over the place and everywhere in the air. rrRRrr... don't like it, makes the environment feel hot and uneasy. haha, am I wierd or am I wierd. I look forward to the ang pao and the food, but new year as a whole, I don't quite want it to come.

downloading GoogleEarth now. have to do so when my brother is not at home, so that the wireless signal is at its best. haha, if not later he come back he always hog the line until I cannot download things. kk, I realise that I am a lousy computer user. haha, there are so many features that I don't know how to use. and there are many things that I have but I don't know that I actually have it. hrm, shall learn all these from my cousin which is a pro. haha... must upgrade my own skills...

talking about upgrading, I totally feel that there's a need for me to polish up my english skills. heh, the proficiency now is really teruk larh. I start to hear mixture of chinese-english-malay-japanese coming out from my throat. what rubbish, suddenly I like feel that I am just some rojak out of nowhere larh. *sobs* have to improve on myself...

listening to joke of the day now. haha, its not funny lorh... haiz...

very tired already larh... oh yar, I just got to know a few other people going to the same course as me. Yay! and so I am not alone. hee. looking forward to meeting limae at the same time! chao!

really very long time never come here le leh...

anyway, spider solitaire is such an addictive game that I wasn't able to get here whenever I come online. heh, everytime my fingers will just be so tempted to open the game. and once opened, its one game after another. haha... and that explains why I hadn't been able to blog.

ok larh, apart from that I was a bit the busy also larh. just finished my jap course today. ended it with an exam. haha, is it the effect of not taking exam for 3 months arh, somehow or another I didn't feel that I was prepared. and I wasn't prepared larh. ok lorh, then I forgot 2 of the details. haha, gan yuan liao lorh...

anyway, now actually very very tired. haha, still must mention something here. I reckon I get high easily whenever I go and shop for stationery. haha, just like yesterday, I bought a new pencil case. but then it wasn't the ideal one larh, so not very very high as in very very high. erm, got amazed by so many new things. haha, suddenly had the urge to buy everything. but luckily I didn't have enough 'determination' to do what I think... if not I guess I will be broke donkey years ago.

k larh... start to talk nonsense already. haha, shall go and enjoy a night's of good sleep, after all the torture of katakana and hiragana. haha, sweet dreams!