finally finally finally... finally I am free to jot down some of my recent stuff here. well, not exactly done with my assignments, but anyhow I just feel like blogging. so don't care about the stupid management that is due day after tml larh... haha, DAY AFT TML!!! and what am I doing here larh?

hrm, added music onto this template. kind of 'addicted' to this song. ai xiao de yan jing, aka eyes that like to smile? oops, my direct translation skill has once again improved. mwahaha... this song is like nice lorh, coz it kept ringing in my head for more than a week liao. anyway, just like the tune, the words, the song... yup yup...

discovered this interesting forum called jbtalks. added it as a site link as well. haha, the comments on my former college is like kind of extreme larh... but anyhow, its good to see what people are unhappy about larh, then only got 38 topics marh! jk... if we know about people's complains, then we can work on it and improve what... that's the way things happen! ok, and I seriously think that the webbie is kind of 'interesting'. but didn't get to stay long, coz I am still hidden beneath my management assignment!!!

argh... why the hell do somebody with the name Katz must go and formulate some theory? stupid larh, if you don't make your life so stress, then mine won't be stress as well!!! basically if people don't record so much of their findings down, then my referencing won't be so crap and I can express my own views even freely! rrRRrr... but on a second thought, maybe he was some bian tai in his era that enjoys stressing out everybody. yeah, and that's why I am stress!!!

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ok, I found something nice in my management text in the midst of preparing my paper. here goes:

"When you like the business and you like what you do, you put yourself into it 110 per cent and you live it. and try [to] have some fun along the way, and be very focused and passionate about what you do. If you love what you do, and you put your hear and soul in it, it becomes part of your life."

- Charlie Bell, CEO, McDonald's (1961-2005)

don't you think this statement is worth pondering upon?

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kk, chao!

2 down, 2 to go. but at least accounting is due next wednesday, meaning that for the rest of this week, all the way up till friday, I am only going to mug on management assignment!

ok, is this good or bad?

nah... not going to discuss about it. I just know that I am more relaxed once I completed my econs and stats assignment. and whatever that is coming after that... let it come tml larh!

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want to share something nice that I just read from friendster bulletin. here goes...

every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her:
• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her that she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you're around your friends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her that you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• write her letters.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she`s important.
• let her take all the photos she wants of you.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.

somehow I think this is really sweet, even though there are certain things in the list that I don't really agree with. nevertheless, most of the items in the list are very factual. in fact there's a message saying that even the smallest action can impact dramatically. haha. I agree with this totally.

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yup yup, that's about it larh. want to sleep liao. will share more stuff next time! sweet dreams!

oh my goodness... drowned in assignments.

will be back soon.

real soon.

Birthday-ing
opened my eyes around 8+ in the morning. goodness, its still quite dark. haha, and then I realised that its raining cats and dogs outside. actually I don't usually know when it rains, that's because the condo is so high from ground level that I don't hear sound of raindrops impacting on any grounds. yup yup, conclusion is... I happily turned myself around and went back to lala-land, not even remembering that it was my birthday.

wy's message came at approx 9. she told me that we would only be out when the rain stops. yup yup, so I continued to 'stretch' myself in my comforter and then I start to think about how my 15 hours is going to pass. 15 because I wasted 9 hours on my birthday in zZz-ing... hee... think think think... by the time I prepare myself, think its almost 1030 le... haha... I am so amazed by how the 2 hours passed, because it didn't feel like 2 hours!

went out with wy at 1130. passed by bangsar on our way to mid-valley. ok, that's a richie's place larh... and everything there is like so up-market that I don't even dare to imagine going there. but luckily that's an uncle clubbing place, so I don't think I will have much chance to hang around much there. if there's a chance, I would like to explore around hartamas area though... since it sounds so interesting...

ok, the first initial intention for going mid-valley was to get a pair of new running shoes so that wy can wear it for marathon. as we were making our way there, we passed by this clarins promotion campaign and was immediately attracted by it. yup yup, so we strayed around there for quite a while, getting to know what promotions was on and also knowing the new range of products available.

normally for cosmetic products' campaign, there's bound to be makeover sessions and of course photo-shooting facility. haha, so tempted by all these because its my 18th birhtday and we thought it would be good to have a great look on such a special day! yup, so at this point of time we still remembered that we had to buy shoes. so we walked away to adidas shop and jusco before returning to the clarins counter.

haha, surprisingly none of the shoes was suitable... instead, we were soon back at the counter, waiting for our turn to makeover and to shoot our photos. this is my first time doing this photo-shooting thingy. so I decided to make it nice nice and therefore I demanded the artist to put glitter on the ends of my eyelids! yup, and the glitter was blue in colour... haha, so my day was so 'high'. anyway, I think I had this really scary eyes for the day, because the eye shadow was in dark blue and dark purple.

oh, the hair was nice!!! must praise the hair stylist for making my hair so preety! I mean like, I just sat down and somehow or another she just knew the perfect style for my image. yup yup, and she did the hair within 10 mins lorh... wOw... and I look totally different out of a sudden. photo shooting was so so larh... the photographer was bad, think he lacked communication skills... but the one that did the computer job was so hilarious! haha... most importantly, this computer guy was making my day so happy that I decided to pay another 150 just to get more of my photos. well, that's what I call good promoter. very efficient one sommor...

left that counter at about 4... I still try to figure out how we manage to spent so much time there... anyway, decided to snack around, but chilli's was full! rrRRrr... so we just walked down the corridor and found ourselves a place in finnigan's which is an irish bar. haha, take note that this is a bar instead of a bistro and they serve alcoholic drinks here! had my first frozen strawberry margeritha... since now I am officially 18... heh, 18 is such a great age!

ok, snacked and yacked till 5+. headed for the curve because there's street market going on. hanged around there and found lots of great deals. got a lot of things that are interesting... but I am so determined with controlling my expenditure, so I ended up buying nothing. haha, just walking around is enough already larh...

at the end of the day, we met up with uncle sony and grandparents for steamboat dinner. haha, thanks to wy for the carrot slice from secret recipe. and thanks to wy's friend, eric I think... I totally didn't ask about your name... hee... for the picture that you took. haha, so nice of you to come just in time to take pictures and to cut the cake. yay!

and so packed up and prepared for marathon. wasted another 30 mins of my birthday as I slept at 1130...

18th birthday ended. conclusion: happy!

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blog again another time larh... need to do assignments liao... chao!

If a girl cries in front of you,it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you take her hand,she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go,she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
except in front of the person who she love the most,she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,she puts down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you,
please don't give her up,
maybe because of your decision, you ruin her life.

When she cry right in front of you;
When she cry because of you,
look into her eyes,
can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?

Think.Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity, in front of you and bcos of you?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not because she wants sympathy.

She cry, because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt and agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys, think about it,
if a girl cry her heart out to you and all because of you,
its time to look back on what you have done.
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it, as one day...
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "I'm sorry".

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I think that this message is nice. haha, so to all the guys out there, don't ever make yourself regret one day, because you might never know, she might be the one... erm, as for girls, I don't know... it might be touchy to read this, but when you are experiencing it, erm... just stay strong. yesh, that's about it.

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very random post... haha, just putting it here because I happened to read this on friendster. finished my 10km marathon just now... very tired... must go and sleep...

Pre-birthday...
ok, the last 1+ hours of being a 17 girl...

this post is basically dedicated to my auntie aka chooi kuin, yingxu and suchin.

chooi kuin: thanks for that haircut! erm, had a great dinner with you at TGI Fridays just now! yup, thanks for everything including letting me stay with you and cooking for me and driving your car and stuff. thank you!

yingxu! hey, picked up that mail from the mailbox yesterday. very gan dong that you actually sent me birthday present despite the fact that I am no longer in JB. well, the blue test tube is very nice! thank you once again for not forgetting me as your friend. hrm, as for the reply... think you might have to wait till I complete my assignment and have some slack time...

suchin! thanks for the card! erm, I don't know if I am suppose to open it before the time arrives. but then I am one that cannot stand looking at the envelope larh... haha, thanks for the messages. its ok not to get shin's bear. yup, its the heart that matters what... anyway, I bet my uni years will be fun and exciting, esp having you around during lunch and most of the times! yar... so let us enjoy till the very end!

yup, basically this post is common for both friendster and blogger. yup. because recognitions need to be 'broadcasted' in case the messages doesn't get across! haha... that's about it larh.

next up: birthday-ing. haha...

oh gosh, this seriously suck... I am blogging in a window just above my excel. and I am having business statistics now. shen qi... haha, but even though I know that this shouldn't happen, I just cannot help it larh... because lesson really too boring lorh. I have been 'away' ever since accounting tutorial. and the only reason for why I didn't doze off during management was because it was group discussion. therefore I think that group work works for me. haha, at least lesson that started at 8 I wasn't asleep.

anyway, I think I am PMSing now. because I am easily irritated by some stupid road users and I am hyperly annoyed by my accounts tutor. by the way, I keep having the thinking that she looks like anna fu. oh man, how I wish she was as passionate as anna fu in teaching larh. haiyo, at least then I won't go to lala-land... anyway, today I spent about half the time doing my assignment, which the date due have been changed from 20th to the 2nd. what is all these rubbish larh... 2+ weeks in advance leh... this is like so so so so so stress... and then I was getting the questions done during tutorial, totally shut off myself from the tutor's tutorial. haha... wanna pengsan liao... coz she talks like old women nag, and her pace is slower than anyone... guess there's only one thing where I like about her, which is the simple fact that she releases us early every week!

erm... finally started some of the assignments. but I realise that time is really needed to complete all the stuff. should be quite busy for the week ahead. so maybe will not come update so often larh... oh yar, and I don't like to do the comments for stats. because its so ringkas-ed that I feel its too short as an answer...

haha, tml's my 18th birthday!!!

erm, and birthday celebrations include marathon-ing, assignment-ing, sleeping, eating, 38-ing and party-ing!

haha, but must finish assignment-ing first. chao!

ok, 2nd post of the day.

wOw, and I just finish the interview discussion thingy. erm, apparently alison and andrew were nowhere to be found. so me, rosanne and adam manage to look at the completed questionnaires. the thing is, the whole discussion lasted for 10 mins in total! haha, didn't decide on whose quiestionnaire to be used for the data entry, because we haven't consulted alison and andrew. phew, so it sounds as if we did not discuss anything. because no further moves were taken. and we just sat there and chatted about thin air. haha...

I feel totally out of the place in this new school that I have been coming for like 4 weeks?!! haha, its like, I don't really know a lot of people and I don't mix around that much. erm, not trying to be zibei down here, but then I really think that I a bit saddistic. there are so many people here and I am not making any new friends. oh my gosh, so shi bai. I should go and socialise more... more as in really more larh. must get to know more people, if not it really feels wierd to be walking in corridors alone... and I won't eat alone... I won't sit around alone... coz when I am alone, I just want to run away. I just don't want anybody around me and I want to hide myself up.

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ok, and I just updated a few people's 'location'. haha, quite happy to know taht our dear miss teoh is in monash melbourne. heh, that means michelle must join monash too. so that we can have this A3-09 gathering in monash. haha. this is so coincidential. and I swear that we never pakat one lorh. this is purely coincidence. and I think this is great! because we can meet up even after years of not seeing each other! oh yar, I miss those A3-09 days where we eat and sleep together, chat and yack together, laugh and cry together...

another thing that I just realised yesterday was that alisa was in RJ all the while since first 3 months! ok, and I always thought that she's a HC person. haha. Libing, my nu er is also in RJ. and I miss all of them so much! was just telling elaine about how much I miss those days staying back in school with her, those days where we had mahjong and badminton sessions as well as those revision cum chatting sessions!!! oh man, how I wish that I have people to do all these with me together. haiz...

ok, this time around when I return to JB, I have to go over to singapore!!! probably stay a night or two there and catch up with all the ny and nygbs people. arh... kylie and shuang also!!! I wonder are they still in contact with each other... all the 2/1, 4/12 and NYCB-ians. oh man, meaning that actually I can hold a press conference and meet up with all of them one shot! haha, jk larh, impossible lorh. must meet and eat and chat... then we can keep up with everybody...

and ivy!!! I miss those days shopping together and eating together!!! those venezia trips, those cold storage and ntuc tours... as well as those yack yack yack and forget the time shopping sprees!!! and of course not forgetting all the 'see-yet-cannot-buy' window shopping where we managed to save our wallets!!! oh man, all those activities are so memorable larh!!! oh yesh, and all the concerts where we melted in our chairs together, all the performances where we criticised and all the great performances that became our topic for months... all these are so nice!!! I want to go Singapore!!!

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I am so high over holidays now that I haven't even typed a single word for any of my assignments. and the worse thing is that daddy and mummy are going to Japan on the 3rd of April when my holiday starts only on the 6th. this is so unfair!!! a few days difference also don't want to bring me there... but nevermind larh, I don't have the intention to crash that uncl auntie tour as well. what's the best is that I get one big empty house and two big cars all to myself! yay! so when I go back to JB, everybody can come drop by the house and keep me accompanied!!! heh, and then can party also, haha...

erm, dreaming of my holidays every single minute. thinking about it every second. conceptualising it in my mind every moment... I just can't wait for it to come!!! 10+ days might be short, but I will definately make the best out of it!!!

k larh, malay about to start soon. its time to stip and go liao. chao!

oh my goodness. I am like totally exhausted after 2 hours of microeconomics. haiz... and this is totally baddd... the funny thing was about how I nearly fell onto the aisle. haha, so lesson learnt, never sit too near the sides, if not you fall off easily. yeah, because you 'nod' your head when you are dozing off, therefore the centre of gravity is not stable from time to time. and at any point in time, the CG of your body will just tilt towards the aisle causing you to fall. haha, can't believe that I am talking so physics-y.

ok, and that was total crapness. blogging about it just because I feel completely sian now. suppose to complete my malay ringkasan before 2 today. but somehow I decide to postpone it later, because I totally don't see any point in doing it. just like that day, I did the fill in the blanks thing and she didn't even bother to take a look at it. rrRRrr... so I am wondering if I can just skip this piece of work and not do it till the end of the world.

later have to meet up with my management group people to discuss about all the interview things. haha, somehow or another I am rather glad that my uncle is a manager. because the interview was nicer than ever. haha, imagine he has to answer my questions, and still got tea to drink sommor! haha, went over to his place for dinner larh, and stayed till near 10. so got all the dinner and snacks and tea and everything! so xing fu. at least better than walking up to some unknown strangers and just ask if we can do any interview about them. that will be so maluating lorh...

k larh... not very free to type. haha... going for lunch! chao!

mwahaha... going to laugh real hard... because I linked salah orang!!! erm... haha...

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officially turned into a four-eyed frog today. look as if I studied for a thousand years like that, damn smart. haha... and so the glasses enhances the fact that I am smart! oh my shen, this is so bhb. but anyway, its hyper ma fan to meddle with specs. because you are suppose to take extremely good care of it. haiz...

anyway, got my shades adjusted too. haha, if not it will be loop-sided and one side of my eye is still expose to sunlight coming from the sides. but last time it never occur to me that I need shades that desperately... now its because of all the afternoon drives that make my eyes become small, therefore I wear shades to 'protect' my eyes from becoming even smaller. haha, I can understand if any of you feel that this is a lame reason.

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I reckon that holidays start from the 6th april. mwahaha, meaning that I get to skip 4 tutorials in a roll, plus if I don't want to go for malay and econs, I can go back to JB on wednesday!!! still comtempulating on whether to ponteng lectures or not. actually if want to ponteng, I don't even want to go for accounts larh. but then cannot be so greedy. haha, the it will start to occur to me that in fact I can skip a whole week's lecture in a roll. oh gosh, tell me that I should not be doing it!!!

k larh, if I want to go back also I want somebody to accompany me. therefore I think I will only go back on wednesday, 4th april. this is rather near lorh. and I am totally in the preparing-for-holiday mood le. hee... just can't wait to go back. and this will be my first visit back home since orientation which was donkey years ago.

after the happy thing, there's always something sad to be mentioned. yeah, that is I have tonnes of assignment due on the 26th that week!!! this is going to kill me, because of the simple fact that I haven't even started on any!!! what the... so I guess now my wonderful holiday is being covered by this thick fog... rubbish.

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I like to yack and yack a lot. and I think I am very very noisy. haha, I don't mind if people say that I am loud and noisy. but I cannot live without talking. that's me. the simple me.

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this is yet another random post. 3 more days. shall stop here and start on my assignments...

once again, I am in the comp lab because business statistics lecture ended at 9 and I only have my next class at 2. suppose to go to sunway pyramid, but I don't think the shops are open now... and suchin is not replying my SMS. oh gosh, so xing fu... can sleep at this hour. and she DON'T HAVE any lesson today! what the hell, I so don't like my timetable.

ok, the lesson today was ok. I didn't fall asleep, because I was seated in the LT earlier than xuezhang!!! oh my god, so proud of myself. normally by the time I park my car and walk into the LT, the lecturer will be there and my xuezhang will be there too! but then somehow I was being early today and jimmy was the only fellow in the LT!!! so the 'piao' people appear to be early. heh...

halfway during the lecture some funny noise sounded. it sounds as if we were in some spaceship thingy. because the noise is not like how people talk... it sounded like ETs communicating with each other. and the sound is just very high pitch larh, so very very irritating. haha, at first I thought the school was being kind to sound something stupid so that it can wake everybody up. but then I realise that it can be a fire drill. ok, I totally don't understand why we have fire drill in university larh. because people are just flowing around, and you can never get hold of the total number of people in the school at any point of time one lorh. anyway, its also quite common sense for people to EVACUATE when some fire alarm sounds. so I don't see any reason in having a fire drill. waste of time.

guess after the noise, everybody was so affected. haha, and then we couldn't even answer the question posted by the lecturer about how accurate the information can be when the data is grouped. and then the lecturer pengsan and decided to recap on everything she taught for the past 2 weeks. haha. by the way, some near 30% of the people are already GONE from the lecture. so as the time pass, eventually there will be only a few little cats left by week 9. haha, and then week 10 everybody will start to piao back, because revision and tips. and everybody includes those that were not in the lecture initially. don't know what they want to do there. but probably they are just interested in the unit larh. haha.

I like business statistics lecture a lot! heh, because its broken down into 2 lectures. so even if the total duration is 2 hours, you feel that you actually learn more because both lectures are scheduled on 2 different days. unlike ms kan last year. she just keep talking and talking continuously... and we end up can't be bothered about it. haha, and this unit is different from introductory microeconomics too! econs lecture is 2 hours straight lorh. and no matter how funny the lecturer is, I can never sustain for 2 hours. definately I will fall asleep at some point in time. and so I think that lectures should all be broken down into small bits. yay!

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went blog-surfing again. and I realise that nutcase's batch is already in sec 4. eugenia's batch is in J1. and cheryl and jacey and shenyi is in sec 3 already. wOw... time really flies. out of a sudden I feel old. haha. and people, please don't rebutt on this fact because I know that it is young to be in university at the age of 18. but still, I am old larh. I mean like, I am no longer in secondary school and my juniors are all about to graduate soon. oh man, if I am not old, then what? ok, also decided to add all my juniors' links into this blog. haha, because so far I only linked 5 people on this blog. shall have a special section dedicated to all the NYCB-ians. yeah... so that the link doesn't break. but I am saying this first arh, if I get to know who doesn't update their blog often enough, then I will delete the link one hor... hee... if not there's no point to link lorh...

piao-ed to maddies blog. peifu that they are in such good relationship even though they graduated like 4 years ago. and their blog is always just so entertaining and so shenjingbing-ing. it makes my day by reading that blog! haha. all of them are so far yet it seems like they are just nearby.

ok, should start work on making the links. chao!

ps: collecting my specs this evening. so its not my fault for not wearing glasses during this blog session!

there's certain things that I don't understand at this moment in time. I just don't know...

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I reckon that I like to cut my hair a lot. haha, the feeling of people meddling with your hair is great! of course, normally when you are done, you tend to see a different you! and that's why I cut my hair again today. look totally different now, unlike previous times where I cut a bit and not much change in the overall hair style. oh yar, I have fringe now, and the line is gone... length wise not that much changes, but now the layering pattern is different and it gives me a fresher look! heh, of course, a special look with a special price.

the first present that I am receiving for my 18th birthday is a haircut from my auntie. she didn't cut my hair larh, she merely paid for it. thanks a lot! anyway, she forgot to bring her purse out today, so in the end I had to foot the bill as well. haha, but still, she paid. hee, coz after that I had a hundred bucks more in my wallet! by the way, the cut costs 85 bucks. I understand that living standards in KL is higher than JB, but I still cannot accept the fact that its 85 for a cut. until...

ok, the stylist... to be exact, the image director, mr.ben-gio... he does zhang dong liang's hair! yup yup, that explains the high price that I pay. I think its worth it, because he had created a new image for me successfully. haha, a nice-and-yet-no-need-to-touch-up-everyday hair style. just for your information, zhang dong liang is some malaysian singer. yar... so I feel darn honoured to have him meddling with my hair. haha, I feel so pretty now. lalala...

went to the gym this morning as well. cycling plus treadmill. in preparation for the marathon this coming sunday. honestly, I feel that I am turning it into a walkathon because I realise that I can tahan better by walking than running+walking. haha, nobody cares larh. not as if its a 42km distance. haha. I feel fresh today after coming back from the gym. yup, so I think its better for me to go there as often as I can. wOw, I didn't think of all these activities before... until now that I realise there's so much facilities in a condo! haha... so suaku.

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those stage moments keep 'haunting' me nowadays. the preparations, the rehearsals, the prep-talks, the tears, the performance, the debriefings and the memories. all these parts of every single performance keep filling my mind. my section, my seniors, my juniors, my conducters, my teacher-in-charges and my batchmates. how I wish that I can turn back time and re-experience all those performances. happy ones, sad ones. I just miss those days. those band days. those nycb-ian days. those stage days. I wish I can go back to those days, even if I know it can never happen again.

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by the way, kind off pissed off by certain things that I just got to know these days. being blocked by somebody. what the hell, total waste of my efforts. shall not care and will not care. but I just don't seem to get this person out of my mind. how I wish that I can decide what stays in my mind and what should remain hidden forever. I said that I am going to end everything. but apparently I just cannot do it. no matter how hard I try...

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lalala, guess this is really long-winded and random. I think asterisks are just nice for seperating random issues. anyway, I am suppose to be four-eyed frogs when I drive at night and when I look at screens. this sucks. I no longer have perfect eye sight. even though I don't have short-sightedness. this sucks totally. and I look hyper-philosophical with glasses. bleah.

I think there's a curse being put on me!!! oh no... lost my 'cosmetic pouch' yesterday. when I was in sec 2, I lost my phone and my wallet a few days before my birthday too! so I think there's some curse being put on me!!! argh... rather affected by the lost of my 'cosmetic pouch, even though I know that things inside are not that valuable. so in the end I lost my minitoon pouch, together with a mirror, a comb, a hairclip and a lipice. argh... so cannot stand myself. because at this moment all I know is that I am going to get back a whole new range of these things and I am going to get it back by the 17th. lalala...

catched dreamgirls in one u yesterday. together with me was suchin, jimmy and wei de(eh, honestly arh, I don't know how to spell his name.). first time hanging out after school. and this reminds me of my orchard days. anyway, the thing is I am the one that drove them there!!! oh man, so proud of myself that I actually went there and back safely without any 'surprises'. *choi* anyway, remembering how I used to travel on public bus service last time... heh, obviously it feels different to be driving around!

ok, back to the movie. I think that the plot was creative. good cinematography, especially the part about effie on stage with all the mirrors. deena was pretty, and all of them sang good! ok, the only thing was that they were all singing almost all the time. not to say that their songs are bad, but too much singing does no good to the audience! take for example the effie part, we were just hoping for the song to end so that the movie goes on. oh god, that was really torturing lorh... haha, like finally it sounded like the last chord, then she continue. rrRRrr... and we were all like 'can she finish it off?'. hee...

just went to the gym. tired... haha, shall sleep now... chao!

mwahahaha... the second time that I am going thru the lousy time table. today is really tutorials as in do homework kind one lorh. unlike last week where all lessons ended earlier than expected and I still felt relaxed after the day's schedule. one word: horrible! argh... really can't help myself for falling off the chair... because I am like so so so so so sleepy. as to the reason for why I am sleepy, heh, all thanks to the CSI on wednesday night. yup, because of that programme, I had to postpone my homework time forward and thus I was rushing through my work last night. and as a result I slept only at 1130.

usually I can get enough sleep larh, by sleeping at 1130 and waking up at 8 in the morning. but then nowadays have to wake up slightly after 6. haiz... just so not used to it. so the morning rush of energy gets flowed out completely by the time I reach school. and then I will start dozing off during lectures. worst of all, I doze off even during tutorials. oh gosh, I hope that I really get my body to adapt to this new clock by next week. because I don't think I can afford to waste any of my precious class times to meet up with mr.z.

anyway, main thing today is to comment on my lecturers and my tutors! heh, this is the fun part I like about school. heh, because you get to gossip gossip about the people in school, especially those staff. haha, and that spices up one's life. but one thing arh, I am not mentioning any names in particular. yar, unless its part of the gossip larh. hee... no offense, just entertainment. hee...

I have this accounting tutor that looks like a.fu, the chem teacher that I had in sec3. haha, all the curly hair, the bad sight... just the exact same pattern larh. and because I didn't prepare all the theory questions for tutorial today, I was in fact a little afraid that she will call out my name. haha, but then somehow she was just kind enough to let me off. since I was good enough to prepare the balance sheet and the income statement. anyway, her memory pattern is also the same as a.fu. haha... I am like meeting sisters larh...

hrm, as for my econs tutorial, that tutor looks exactly like mr.han. haha, don't know if I got his name correct. he's the social studies tutor in sec4. poor guy, always kena bullied by us. anyway, this one is extremely serious one. and he stressed on the point that he wants to create a 'cheerful' study environment. haha, my foot lorh, with his way of talking and stuff, I doubt so. later still got his class. haiz... tension arh...

actually now I having business statistics tutorial. haha, and the teacher doesn't look like a teacher at all!!! rarr... wy yeen says that he's hyper-blur... but then I realise that I have no other option. oh my shen, so guess no choice left but to be hardworking on my part lorh. haha, he's walking round to check each stations. haiz... cannot crap anything more le, if not later I get chased out of class arh. by the way, now learning summary statistics. haha, can't believe that I am actually stuck with statistics all the way up till now leh. haha... great achievement!!!

chao!

bleah... totally slept through the entire econs lecture. eh, really not my fault one lorh. I mean like imagine hearing the exact same things for the 2nd time, very torturing one leh. and then the audi was dark enough for mr.z to stay around me... so went zzz lorh...

erm, I can really find traces of ms how's speech in this econs lecturer of mine. oh man, miss her lesson so much. still remember those days where lectures are just like cakap sessions where we talk freely and we learn in that flexible way. I don't know is it only me or what larh, but I really find that I can learn better through the cakap sessions. and then all the rubbish about the JJ Law of Common Sense came about, distorting all the economic theories that ms how tries to force into our brains. heh, that's fun lorh.

anyway, one lecture that lasted 2 hours since 8am. haiz... all about demand, supply and equilibrium. all these sounded so familiar that I just cannot help it but to close my ears. guess ms how's way that is similar to shirlene tieh's just get things sutck in my mind. well, but then I think this time around everything is more structured. erhem, probably because its a big lecture and then cannot talk talk, so they drafted out this schedule which is to be strictly followed. so everything is more structured lorh!

haha, this term is like quite relax larh. can afford to fall asleep for the first few lectures because they are just recapping all those pre-u stuff... erm, not trying to show show here larh, but then seriously there is a reason for my 305 MUFY score one lorh. haha, therefore this provides me with the absolute reason to play around with mr.z during the first few lectures.

ok larh, the truth is that every morning after all the driving and stuff, I get really tired. haha, so no matter what lecture it is arh, I will try my best to keep myself awake. but most of the times I will be so so so so so tired and just doze off unknowingly. argh, this week still better, at least I can withstand the sleepiness for some time. think over time it will be better. because then my body will adapt to the new clock le.

there's something that I really think I should post about. heh, 9 more days. hahaha, 9 more days will be an important day. heh, and can you all believe that 10 days from today and I am participating in the KL marathon? haha, even me myself cannot enter this into my memory larh. and the story started last night when I met uncle sony for dinner to celebrate auntie irene's birthday.

[this is a rough scene of what I remember.]
uncle sony: I've been training up myself for the KL marathon. why you all never go train one?
auntie joyce: shung got go larh, yen... I not sure leh. she seem to be busy.
auntie irene: aiya, I go also walk one lorh.
shung: nevermind one, can walk one what...
auntie joyce: eh, wy quin, why not you go larh, I think I not free on that day leh...
me: erm, I go walk one worh... 10k leh...
auntie irene: then you walk with me lorh! come and stay over one night before larh... the we go together...

ok, and so I end up with the marathon. haha, still cannot believe it. me? running marathon? more like walking marathon... haha... but guess its a good chance for me to take a nice glance at KL. didn't really get to go down, coz very very scared of the traffic. haha, so I think this is the best chance where the roads are all cleared for me to have a clear vision of our capital city lorh. yay!

haiz... don't know what to write le leh... aiya, when I know then I come again lorh.

just to note, 9 more days...

Here again to blog. no choice larh, now stuck in the comp lab until 2 in the afternoon. and if I don't blog, I don't know when I will come online again. several issues to blog about. but I don't know if I will remember each of them after I blog every single issue.

last night I watched something on the 9/11 incident. tears rolled down my cheeks when I was watching. just like they say, who in the aeroplane or in the world trade centre would know that their next moment might be their last moment? *bang* and you might be breathing your last breath, looking at the last object before you go away and hearing the last words being said. probably you might not even have that spare time to talk. words are stuck in your mouth and nothing comes out. and then for all you know, you don't have the ability to talk anymore.

for the families watching all the live broadcast at home, seeing how their love ones die, having so much to tell them but not being able to do so. it is indeed very torturing. after everything happened, they are suppose to tie up the loose ends, doing all the unfinished things and be sad about it. they didn't have a choice. I think if any of them that is involved in that incident has a choice, surely they won't want it to happen. and even if I am not there, even if nobody that I know was involved in that incident *choi*, I don't want it to happen either. this is such a waste of life.

and then I went to Ivy's blog.
'Not to touch the wound will be the best way to forget you were wounded.'
-miss stupidity.
and I totally agree with this. the wound hurts occassionally, but as long as you don't give any attention to it, then I think it will go away. if it doesn't go away, I don't know what to do except for making it go away by ignoring it. if not, just don't care about it. make sure that the wound don't get infected, if not that will be terrible. and that kind of embarrasment... no comments. being maluated is a one time thing. but biting on the fact of being maluated, that's a lifetime thing. well, just a torturing process. that's all.

oh man, the previous para is so abstract. but sometimes getting feelings down in words is just another hard thing that I might never be able to do. ignoring just because I was being ignored. I hope I can do this. even if I can't, I must be able to do it. if not it will never be over, and it will just haunt and haunt and haunt... till the day I walk into my coffin. *choi!*

out of Ivy's blog, checked on that usual few blogs. I realise one thing, that is people are not updating again. and this indicates that they are busy. ok, and then it tells me that I am not doing my work because I am still so free down here. hrm, let me see, if I did not remember wrongly, all my assignments are due end of April. meaning that I have about 7 weeks. and so I am suppose to start it soon. real soon. maybe after I post? haha, hope so.

the signal down here in the lab is so poor. but it is the best compared to the tutorial rooms. not really sure with the LTs, because I haven't been sms-ing during my lectures in LT7. heh, such a good girl! *thumbs up!* ok larh, kind of smart move to make the class venues all signal-proof. haha, that scales down the possibility of students not paying attention. but on the other hand it helps to get students to doze off lorh... no phone... sleep will be the next best alternative. hee!

don't like my timetable larh. it would be good if next sem I can cram everything into 3 days. then at least my free-time can be more meaningful. unlike now and thursday, I have to just rot in the computer lab because I have LAN at 2 in the afternoon. haiz. and all my tutorials are on friday!!! that's kind of crazy, but that's the best way I can arrange le. well, so have to bear with it lorh.

oh yar, talking about my friday... last friday was really 'hectic' larh. management lasted an hour long, accounting was less than 20 mins, bus stats was slightly more than an hour and econs was 45 mins. heh, don't even know if I am going to be that 'busy' on fridays next time. but if work continues to pile in, I think I am going to dry up on fridays lorh.

my mind is like a blank piece of paper now. but I know that I haven't finish everything that I want to blog about. that's why I said at the beginning that I will write a long post provided I don't forget anything in the midst of typing which is always the case. oh yar, get to watch tokyo juliet on shx. lalala... wu zun is cute one lorh!!!

k larh... I should seriously stop hogging this PC. think somebody's going to curse me for doing so... chao!!!

"The road to happiness lies in two simple principles; find what interests you and that you can do well, and put your whole soul into it - every bit of energy and ambition and natural ability you have." – John D. Rockefeller

hrm... somehow I find this statement rather meaningful.

finding what interests you. what exactly interest me arh? at the moment I guess my pillows and my comforter and my mao mao dog interest me the most larh. I used to be interested in many things, but all these interests just vanished into thin air. I don't know why, but it is always the case where my interests will be mocked at, will not be supported and will just disappear. just like previously, I wanted to enrol myself into some hospitality management course. my parents told me all about the cons in it and almost everybody around me emphasised on the bad things about that course. well, also blame myself for not having the courage to work towards my dreams, soon I changed my mind and came into the business field.

I woudn't say that I have no interests in business. its just that I don't have exceptionally strong interests in it. as compared to the thinking of 'passion for service', I seriously don't think that I have any great ideas in business. but here I am, in a course with the name Bachelor of Business and Commerce... 3 years will soon fly past and then I plan work towards a masters in administration. probably its the right choice, but I don't feel so. maybe sometime later I will feel so ba.

whatever it is, once I have chose to do so, I must always put in every single bit of me into what I am doing. guess that's the deal. once chosen, strive to make the bestest best out of it. interests? erm, don't think it matters so much already. as I always say, never look back and regret. since I already make the choice, there is no reason as to why I should make myself regret what. isn't it?

anyway, this is just another random post which the main thing I want to feature on is about the quote at the beginning larh. all the best for me!

its raining in JB. heard about it over the radio. the whole stretch along pasir gudang highway is moving slowly. the jam is forming up. and here I am, 400+ kilometers away from that 'flood-prone' area. accelerating, braking, braking and still braking. haha, got caught in among the slow moving traffic along LDP. and there I was, driving on that 'so-familiar-yet-unfamiliar' route to school.

well, probably things would have been entirely different if I am in Sunway JB doing the VU programme. haha, then I won't be forced to wake up as early as 630am. and I will be happily having lessons with all the once-so-familiar shifu and gang. everything remains the same, so I won't have to adapt to this crap life that I am living with now. at least I will go home everyday, wait for the nicely prepared meals and have my usual TV sessions and my radio cum homework night times. won't that be wonderful?

but that isn't what I wanted. I wanted to get into a renowned uni, complete my degree, get a good job with high pay... and to live happily every after. and I always wanted to live in a big city, so that get closer to MNCs and this increases a chance for me to work for them. probably I am dreaming, because the big city's lifestyle doesn't really suit me. I miss home, I miss that protected environment. I miss those people. and I don't quite really like the life down here. its so different, so hard to adapt.

haiz... still have to bear with it larh. cannot say give up then give up, too useless liao. anyway, haiz... try harder to adapt lorh. I think I have that courage to carry on walking. well, I don't want to turn back and regret next time. I really don't like to regret.

erm, kind of planning a trip to singapore during mid-sem break. wanna watch phantom that will be showing in esplanade starting from 28th march. hrm... shall make exact plannings for it. haha, and it will be fun! haha, let's hope that airasia brings me to singapore too! lalala... whee...

planning for my holidays when school barely started for 1 week. mwahahaha...