Econs is going to drive me nuts.

Things on the table:

MUFY notes.

Notebook. (contain lecture and tutorial notes.)

Mankiw textbook.

MUFY textbook.

Mind map 'in the process'.

Pens. (4 ziggies, 1 highlighter, 3 g-techs and ...)

Labtop!

Mamee!

ok. just being random here. stressed. finished absolute and comparative advantages. moving on to management now. screwed. I don't know how many midnight oil I have to burn. haiz. exams are suppose to be evaluations for our learning what, why does it seem to be the end of the world? or am I just taking it too seriously?

but I know I can't screw up. jiayou jiayou jiayou!

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went to The Dining @ Sunway today. a restaurant that is managed by the hospitality students of SyUC. not bad larh, a bit the pro sia. haha, to think that I was suppose to be one of the students there... haiz. anyway, I think its really cool. I mean like you get to really try out what it is like in the real world. sommor the food taste great lorh! yup. for the money that I paid, I think I had a great experience dining there.

anyway, the mei yi qi fellow - David - went to watch Pirates 3. rarrrRRR. I haven't watch yet!!! oh my tian, and it has been up for so long. must find time to watch it next week. die die also must watch. haha. oh yar, and the table was reserved under that fellow's name. sommor reserve for 5 pax. so a bit the wierd when only 3 girls turned up. haha, luckily jimmy kor kor was 38 enough to join us. if not, that big table with 3 of us, the atmosphere would be damn kong...

ok, that 'restaurant' is open to public one larh. so today saw many kids and family go there. mainly because they have family members in that course larh! and a few of them really very kuazhang. haha, don't know what to say, don't know how to say. so don't say! heh.

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yet another random post. going to ipoh on saturday morning. will be meeting up with Ivy. yay! ok, yet expecting to waste another weekend. I have to study!!!

ps: exam is coming in 1 week's time. 3 weeks later and I will be freed!!! *looking forward*

I sound like a toad. I sound like a frog. I sound like somebody else and not myself! and I still yack away. I bet even if I lose my voice, I will still continue to struggle and talk! oh my tian, that's so me, just can't stop talking. lalalala...

anyway, went back to school to study today. erm, woke up near noon and made lunch pack for myself and dajie. then david came along and kooped a few mouthful. haha. one comment: he just can't resist food temptation! haha. revision right after food. did one mindmap and then the focus is gone. I don't know if its the sick me or not, but I just didn't have the concentration to continue on. oh my shen, I am so screwed.

anyway, the flu has sucked almost everything out of me. I feel better daytime, but as night falls, it all come back again. now I can't look down all the time because then my nose will run. I can't possibly study with the book on top of me because I need to draw mindmaps. and I feel weak. every moment spent at home will make me think of the tellie and the beddie. and I will end up rotting time away. even if I can only concentrate for awhile in school, awhile is still considered awhile. at least its better than doing nothing but slacking off at home.

discussed about our aims and targets for this coming exams. realistic and unrealistic ones. haha.

Accounting: HD (HD)
Business Statistics: D (D)
Management: D (HD)
Microeconomics: C (D)
*those in brackets are the 'unrealistic' targets.

well, it is not a bad thing to aim for the sky, because at least if you fall, you reach the clouds what. haha, I don't know, not much of a confidence. but somehow I know this time round I cannot screw up. oh my tian. for econs, I don't even know how to score a 'P'. I mean like, my first assignment is already gone, and I have to get at least 30.5 to be able to clear hurdle. and I am still hoping for a C. haha, how unrealistic I can get.

k larh, enough said about studies. gonna post something nice that I quoted from JingTing's friendster bulletin. =)

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1. Tell her she is beautiful.
2. Hold her hand at any moment.
3. Hug her from behind.
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. Wrestle with her. (whoa...)
6. Don't go hang out with you ex when she is not with you.
7. When you're done talking to another girl, walk over, hug her and kiss her.
8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"
9. Introduce her to your friends... as your girlfriend.
10. Play with her hair.
11. Pick her up.
12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it. (cruel sia...)
13. Make her laugh.
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
15. If she's mad at you, kiss her. (this one a bit subjective worh...)
16. If you care about her, tell her.
17. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
18. Look her in the eyes and smile.
19. Hang out with her on weekends.
20. Kiss her in the rain. (later sick arh!)
21. Kiss her just for the heck of it. (*dots*...)
22. If your listening to music, let her listen too.
23. Remember her birthday and get her something.
24. When she gives you a present, take it and tell her you love it. (eee... so fake!)
25. Always call her when you say you will.
26. Give her what she wants. (everything?)
27. Recognize the small things, they usually mean the most.
28. Don't hug her friends or your friends that are girls. (cannot one meh?)
29. Hang out with her whenever you are free.
30. If u care about her...SHOW her.

wahaha, edited part of it. ok, this thingy is just some bulletin which I just read on friendster. haha, got my comments on those that I think a bit the erm... larh... haha. shall go study now! =)

koped this from siewying's blog which was actually sourced from qianwen's blog. ok, I don't know qianwen in person. haha, should be a nycbian now and I am way too old to know her. anyway, if I am not wrong, she's in euphos. yar, that's all.

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ARE YOU A DA JIEJIE OR XIAO MEIMEI?

START :

WHICH TYPE OF CLOTHES DO YOU NORMALLY WEAR?
A. romantic and cute, dress or western style. [START FROM Q1]
B. relaxed, fitting shorts [START FROM Q2]
C. cool and shuai, jeans [START FROM Q3]
D. hot mini skirt [START FROM Q4]

Q1. WHICH OF THESE TWO SENTENCES WILL MAKE YOU FEEL VERY HAPPY IF A GUY PRAISES YOU WITH IT?
A. "you are very beautiful!" [GO TO Q5]
B. "why are you so cute ah? " [GO TO Q6]

Q2. HAVE YOU EVER TAKEN UP ANY POSITIONS IN YOUR CLASS?
A. yes, or more than once. [GO TO Q5]
B. no. [GO TO Q7]

Q3. IF YOU HAVE A CRUSH, YOUR ACTIONS WOULD MOST LIKELY BE...
A. go up to him and tell him[GO TO Q6]
B. quietly wait for him to tell you he likes you[GO TO Q8]

Q4. IN YOUR IMAGINATIONS, YOUR LIFE AFTER MARRIAGE WOULD BE...
A. housewife, take care to needs of family[GO TO Q8]
B. career woman, juggle between family and work[GO TO Q7]

Q5. IF YOU WANT TO BUY SOMETHING THAT YOU EYED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
A. hint to parents and try to be very guai, hoping they would buy it for you[GO TO Q10]
B. save up and buy [GO TO Q9]

Q6. WHEN YOU HAVE PROBLEMS, YOU...
A. find a friend or family member to complain to[GO TO Q11]
B. bottle up, keep to urself, hoping you would work it out yourself[GO TO Q9]

Q7. WHEN YOU HAVE A HEATED ARGUMENT WITH A FRIEND, THE SITUATION WOULD NORMALLY BE...
A. you would be the first to drop tears[GO TO Q10]
B. scream and insist your way and reasonings, you are not wrong after all.[GO TO Q12]

Q8. WHEN YOU GO OUT WITH YOUR FRIEND, YOU ARE NORMALLY...
A. late and have to ask ur friends to wait for you[GO TO Q12]
B. early or most of the time on time[GO TO Q11]

Q9. WHAT WOULD YOU NORMALLY DO WHEN YOU SEE A SCENE THAT IS TOUCHING WHEN WATCHING TV SERIALS OR MOVIES?
A. cry very easily and show your feelings[GO TO Q14]
B. bear with the urge and try not to present your feelings[GO TO Q13]

Q10. WHEN YOU ARE TAKING PICTURES WITH FRIENDS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX, YOU NORMALLY...
A. stand very close to them[GO TO Q15]
B. stand very far away[GO TO Q13]

Q11. WHEN YOU HAVE TO SAY A LIE, YOU NORMALLY ...
A. think of a good lie, then say it without any hitch[GO TO Q15]
B. make others suspicious because u stutter, afraid that you might be found out.[GO TO Q14]

Q12. THERE IS A TYPHOON AND YOU ARE ALONE AT HOME. SUDDENLY, THERE'S A BLACKOUT, YOU WOULD...
A. be calm, find a candle or torch and patiently wait for the electricity to recover.[GO TO Q15]
B. be frantic, think of scary things and scare yourself. [GO TO Q16]

Q13. SOMEONE YOU DISLIKE ASKS A FAVOUR OF YOU, YOU WOULD...
A. still help him if its in your ability[YOU ARE A TYPE]
B. reject, why should you help when you dislike him?[YOU ARE B TYPE]

Q14. YOUR HABIT WITH YOUR STATIONERIES..
A. although its old and you've been using it for very long, you cant bear to throw it. [YOU ARE B TYPE]
B. replace it the moment you have something new and interesing. [YOU ARE TYPE C]

Q15. WHEN YOU HAVE TO DO WORK YOU LIKE AND WORK YOU DISLIKE, YOU WOULD...
A. finish the work you dislike first, then do the ones you like happily. [YOU ARE TYPE C]
B. finish the work you like first, then drag and slowly do the ones you dislike. [YOU ARE TYPE D]

Q16. THE STYLE AND COLOUR TYPES OF YOUR ROOM.
A. clearly of a certain style and theme, eg.cuteness or romantic styles. [YOU ARE TYPE E]
B. have different styles and themes, a mixture, looks messy. [YOU ARE TYPE D]

ANSWERS:
TYPE A
-Example: MakikoEsumi
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: *****
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:*
-You belong to the type that cannot bear to see others suffer. In the eyes of others, you are a respectable jiejie-like person. No matter boy or girl, both respect you and trust you a lot. You are very generous, and do not like to argue, thus is quite lovable by others.
-YOUR PRINCE: Guys who goes out with you normally need to have the same passion as you, because only when he becomes a hero like you, your relationship will become more strong.

TYPE B
-Example: Nanako Matsushima
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: ****
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:**
-Guys are most attracted to your fresh and smart da jiejie attitude. It allows guys to more easily present themselves to you in a truthful manner, and not try to cover up their shortcomings.
-YOUR PRINCE: Guys who sometimes present their weak self would definitely need a girlfriend like you! Normally, once those guys meet you, they will uncontrollably be deeply attracted to you.

TYPE C
-Example: Ella
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: ***
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:***
-You like to build relationships with the guys, so that you can do what he can do, and not deeply rely on him just because you are a girl. Your independent character reveals a strong sense of confidence and charm. This is also what attracts them to you.
-YOUR PRINCE: Your relationship with your boyfriend normally starts from friends. you treat each other like brothers, can do a lot of things together and get along well. Under these circumstances, you slowly become a pair of lovers in the eyes of others.

TYPE D
-Example: Moon Geun Young
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: **
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:****
-You normally present a truthful self to your friends, not like some who do not speak truefully from the heart. Your gentle and kind self causes a guy to be touched and makes him wants to protect you uncontrollably.
-YOUR PRINCE: Guys with sensible minds suits you the best. Your relationship is stable, gentle and boring. Although it is not as passionate, always remember that a stable relationship can always last long.

TYPE E
-Example: Rainie Yang
-DAJIEJIE LIKENESS: *
-XIAOMEIMEI LIKENESS:*****
-You are quite pure and innocent and presents your moods on your face, without hiding. You need a lot of people's guidance and protection, you like to "sa jiao" Sometimes, you would seem unreasonable, but most of the time, you are innocent and lovable by others.
-YOUR PRINCE: Guys with hero-like qualities suit you the best. He likes to protect and take care of others, thus both of you can fit perfectly!

***
end of the thingy. highlighted my choice and the outcome. how true? don't know. don't ask me. because I tried answering it a few times and I still end up in the same category. jinxed.

I don't know how many posts I am blogging in one day. all I know is that I can't get anything into my mind and I have to finish at least 2 chapters of econs today. how screwed can I be? and I finished half a box of tissue paper. all thanks to the flu. gong gong now. haiz... hopeless. procrastination, that's not a good thing to do. but at times, it might be useful, isn't it?

trying my best to stay awake and get something into my mind. shall stop here.

back from the library. I totally cannot accept the fact that I have been in the library studying for the past two days. haha. a good start marks success, isn't that a popular chinese saying? ok. but one thing hor, I don't feel that I got anything in my mind after these two days of work larh. oh my goodness, does that mean my revision is inefficient? hope I am thinking too much.

sick. not feeling well. sommor need to prepare for exams. how sucky can life get? my nose is running away from me, the throat doesn't feel good as well. what more, I had fever last night and I think its coming again now. haiz. I really don't want those Os days to come back where I need to pop into my mouth panadol before I sleep and bring packets of tissue everywhere I go larh.

no appetite. last night ate 'fish porridge' which really shocked me. haha, the so called 'fish' was actually fish balls and fish cake. to be specific, its 2 fish balls and 1 piece of fish cake that was sliced into 6 slices. wow, I didn't know that this is fish porridge. I mean like, got fish meh? haiz. and then hor, the horrible fish porridge was RM5. if I have a choice, I won't buy it ever again. never again. RM5 for processed fish porridge. I rather starve myself.

my face looks as if it has no soul right now. its so restless. and I am tired. with my bones aching from the inside, I have no mood to study larh. sick is enough. sommor need to have fever. am I like unlucky or unlucky? and I start having the feeling that this is the 'sick of the year' since I have it every year and its always in may. just that no one would expect it to come so late in may. ok, at least I didn't expect myself to be sick larh. I mean like, I need to go for exams one lorh.

if I never remember wrongly, I promised to blog about the previous weekend right? hrm... I don't know to start from which part leh... so I decided to give it a miss. haha, coz I am sick and I am lazy to re-enact the scenes and the classics. just as a summary, dajie came over for the weekend. went ikea for meatballs, paramount for satay... whoa... sounds so much like a makan trip!!! oh yar, and after exams we are going to pasar malam!!!

due to the simplest fact that I am sick, I shall end my post here and continue to study cum rest cum surf around. chao!

had an absolutely exciting weekend. what a wonderful statement.

my first trip to KLCC. haha, nice. suppose to attend a workshop on saturday morning, which turns out to be a waste for my time and serves as a perfect reason for me to go jalan jalan in KLCC. mwahaha. passed by all the branded shops. realised how poor I am. haiz... and I went there all the way to demotivate myself!!! bleah.

and I missed out burberry of all shops. went into gucci, browsed through chanel... and I saw frank muller shop!!! ok, just that I was passing by all these shops, I realise that all my made-in-Shanghais are so fake. heh, not that I want to say larh, but it really doesn't make you feel good when you are carrying the fake one and you are seeing genuine stuff lorh!

met jiajun at KLCC too. this fellow obviously lack of sleep. and I don't know why these people are not getting enough sleep when they don't have school. oh my tian. given me in their shoes, sleep comes in front of everything else. I will sleep even until the sky drop down one. heh, me... haiz... just piggish enough to be a pig!

anyway, dajie stayed through the weekend. xuezhang, princess and yc came over for dinner. home-cooked food. heh, I think that's the nicest I can get le lorh. I mean like, I think that's the most I can do to lessen everybody's home sickness. and hor, I found out that yc eats a lot of rice!!! haha, scare me though... and all guys essentially eat mountains of rice. shocked. haha...

sick now. shall blog again another time. nose running away and my body is not feeling like mine. I am so dead. screwed for exams!

this is week 12, last day. I ponned accounting tutorial. somply because I not free to layan the curly hair girl. oh my shen, I feel so bad. but it doesn't matter. I still didn't attend the lesson in the end. mwahaha.

and I was being kind to sit in for managing in the morning. 8am leh... but I only entered the classroom at 815. didn't do any tutorial activity today, so a bit the waste of my time. talked about the long awaited examination. I am kind of scared for it. its like ten thousand years since I last sat for such a writing paper larh. confirm will have poor time management. haiz. but luckily the format a bit different now. part a choose 6 out of 8, part b choose 1 out of 4. this is like much better then the 5 and 2 ratio. because it means that we will have to write less.

still hor, only given 2 hours nia. so irritating. the time limit is hinting me that I have to manage my time carefully so as to not exceed anything. I shan't exceed the word limit and I shan't exceed the given time. this is like... so hard...

I wonder if I will be surviving after the exams. for shifu's sake, will sure sure chiong back to JB and celebrate birthday one. tapi I scared I no mood. haiz... (how say) 'zhen me shuo' also the first exam since I entered monash lorh, if screw up then will be very demotivating de...

aiyo, I think too much larh. dajie coming to stayover this weekend!!! yay!!! ok, must remind myself to get the camera from kor kor so that tml we can take pictures!!! *sound like never go KLCC before like that... haha...

kor kor going back home for 1 week. so shuang. I want to go as well!!! nevermind, can ren... after exams then go back till I shuang! rar... going to drive his car to school next week. haiz... *speechless. today have to drop him at william's. haven't been there before, don't even know exactly where that place is. I am so shi bai.

the free pirates tickets just went *poof* into thin air. a bit feeling cheated, why the hell that fellow that promised the tickets fly my aeroplane???!!! haiz... seems like I have to go and dig my own money to watch le. =(

I want to eat tong shui!!! I want mango loh!!! tapi me nowadays no appetite leh...

==Exam Stress!== oh my tian, its coming again!!!

I haven't started with my revision yet. that's quite sad.

now I am comparing phones. sony ericsson ones. quite cool. choosing between k800i and w850i. but in the first place hor, I don't even know if I can change a phone. because the last and final decision does not lie in my hands. haiz. never mind lorh, look see look see shiok sendiri pun boleh mah...
ok, this is w850i in white. its a walkman phone, so the specs are more towards hearing and not so much on the camera. by the way it has a 2.0 megapixel camera which is better than my phone now. the in-phone memory is small larh, even though can add memory stick inside. the thing that I like the most is that this one is not joystick. so the possibility of me having to repair the joystick will be lessen. but then this one as said before, does not have a good enough camera. don't have flash one... too bad... haiz... white phone chio right? haha, I want a white one!!! oh yar, and this one is slide out kind of keypad. I didn't own any phones like this before. haha, so it should be a worth try! =)

ok, and here is a photo of k800i. have been eying this phone for quite a long time d, considering its availability in the market for such a long time. well, my N7370 is just 1 years' old what, so the idea of owning this didn't really cross my mind. k800i, actually there's an upgraded version of it which is k810i. however that model is real fresh from the oven and being not so much of a tech gig, I am not very keen to that model larh. much reviews were written about this model, mostly rather good comments. the only thing is, the joystick is somewhat a problem and causes slight headache. the camera, urhum, SUPERB! ok, 3.0 megapixels, what more can you expect from it? and the design is good too!!! oh yar, and the in-built memory is 64MB. haha, that's like 4 times the w850i lorh. all in all, good phone. heh... of course larh, that's how the phone 'attracted' me what...

I don't usually write product reviews. haha, because I am so not into it. mwahaha, but today, somehow a bit unusual. haha, so shall do some siao siao things lorh! heh, don't blame me if the above mentioned information is inaccurate. all because I said that I am not a tech gig. yup, have to go and study le larh. if not haven't even ask for the phone already died from exams liao lorh.

ps: some kind soul out there! you can consider buying me any of the above-mentioned phone. I will thank you with the rest of my life!!! mwahahaha...

N7370: I am sorry but you are really detriorating. ought to let you rest liao. haha, and sorry for 'abusing' the keypad until a bit cacat. heh. I still like the swing-flip design which is SPECIAL! haha.

switched the music of this blog. from the whole list to one song. a very nice song, entitled 'first love'. this is not the utada hikaru version. in this song, there is one saxaphone solo, one trumpet solo and a nice trombone opening. I think I blogged about this before. haha. wanted to put persis overture, seventh night, fate of the gods and mononoke hime as well. but then decided not to. coz I think readers of this blog will like this song.

anyway, contempulating between being an audience or a performer for appassionata XI. deep down inside, I really want to return to that stage. just for that few minutes. I want to re-experience it. however, I know its a bit hard. have to ask for permission from my parents, have to plan my schedule to fit in the practise, have to tire myself out. furthermore, I haven't been playing for ten thousand years. ever since graduation. and now I am suppose to join alumni, which is like pro pro the pro place.

yining approached me first. she said maybe either kiaying or me go back then she will go back. I hope the 3 of us go back together. even though I know there's a possibility that we all don't have enough instrument, I think its just good enough for us to meet up and talk talk lorh. such a long time since I last saw them. judy, I hope she knows about this concert. not pinning to high hopes on her to return for alumni, but let's hope that she might be able to make it for the concert. aiya, who ask her to be so far away in england larh...

I just need to get hold of the practise schedule, then I can make a decision. haha, who knows, probably I can't play even a single thing. haha. considering my laupok standards last time. haiz. but then the concert falls on the first weekend after my semester starts. hrm... maybe just make a short trip back lorh. ma fan. haiz...

now my whole mind is like just filled up by appassionata and holidays. this is so sinful. because I haven't touched my revision and I am suppose to have introductory microeconomics in approx 2 weeks' time. this time, I am seriously screwed. oh yar, here's my exam schedule. posting it here so that I get reminded constantly. haha. the lousiest way, I know...

8th of June: Introductory Microeconomics (1330-1630)

9th of June: Bahasa Kebangsaan A (0900-1200)

12th of June: Managing People and Organisations (1330-1530)

18th of June: Business Statistics (0830-1130)

20th of June: Introductory Accounting A (0830-1130)

ok, making the font a bit striking so that I really get reminded about how near all the papers are. haiyo, the one that I need long long time to write one is only 2 hours. and the statistics paper which is a bit like maths is 3 hours. aiyo. I am like so in desperate need for effective time management skills. I need more time. I need the brain to study. I need to focus. oh my tian, I need so many things!

oh yar, the past weekend my parents came KL. haha, they really like to come one lorh. they are like coming every fortnight. haiyo, and this time very kua zhang one, coz they came to buy a new condo unit. erm, I know larh, its for our comfort larh. tapi a bit kua zhang lorh. its like not even a month's time since my mother suggested to change a bigger unit. and now they paid the downpayment. I am like, one word: shoccckkk.

then we went down to the federal auto along federal highway because the XC70's aircon a bit pok. the workshop was close. so being pattern, my dad went to the showroom to 'jalan'. and guess what, we went to test drive XC90. and the sales man was like, 'what is this guy trying to do when he owns a XC70 and he intends to test a XC90?'. haha, this is like so rubbish. then I saw the 'chio-est' model in the entire showroom - S40.

honestly arh, it looks a bit like proton gen 2 larh. haha, and then my father started asking the salesman about the specs and the price and stuffs. he went to the extreme of asking about whether that model suits girls like me or not. at that point of time I really had that imagination that he was going to get me a car larh! haha, am I dreaming or am I dreaming?

then the next day we went to naza world. along federal highway also. and the entrance for that showroom is from 222. anyway, down there really nice one lorh. got a lot of cars. in fact most of them are recon ones. then my dad was searching for a new prado TX3.0 or something. and the fellow there say only got petrol one. *pengsan-ed. imagine an engine that is 3000++ cc and it literally 'drinks' petrol. oh my tian, how much money does it take to maintain that vehicle?

haha, went to the showroom with my grandparents as well. and my grandpa lagi pattern. he was down there exclaiming that mini cooper suited me. sommor he just told my dad that what I need is that car. wOw, thanks grandpa for 'helping' me. but that car costs 200k++ lorh. not cheap like 20 cent arh... haiyo... saw many other cars larh, got BMW, Mercedes, Mini, Subaru, Mitsubishi... so many odd ones. and sommor got Porche and Ferarri. ok, I am quite glad that my grandpa didn't say I needed a Porche Carrera or something. if not I really pengsan... haha, even though I don't mind getting one.

tml don't have lecture. because accounting is such a nice subject that kevin finished the sylabbus 2 weeks ago. real thankful for this one day break. at least it means that I get a whole undisturbed 24 hours to work on my revision. haiz... have to start soon. shall update again when I am sian of revision lar! chao!

Appassionata XI is going to be on the 20th. I wonder if there will be any change. haiz. how? my semester starting on the 16th. it will be a bit hard for me to travel to and fro. but I don't want to give it a miss leh. oh shen, stuck in the middle. how I wish KL is just right next to JB.

back to the sensitive thingy. nowadays I am really sensitive to how other's view me. and I am sensitive of the comments made. what more, I am very particular about little details. like if somebody says something that is a bit off, then I will point out the mistake and correct it. trust me, I am not trying to be proud. I don't know why such cases happens, but there is no slightest intention to indicate that I am proud. for that, I can assure you.

anyway, I don't know. somehow I think that some people around me are just being stubborn. I mean like, most of the times I will know that there's two sides to a matter one lorh. but these people just believe in one side. they will then tell me their stand, which I don't deny, and finally they will insist that only they are right. oh man, if its for the past 18 years, I won't care what you insists. but nowadays I will talk back a little, trying to claim that there's two sides to a matter.

at the end of the day, these people will just say that I changed. they will say that I am being stubborn and sensitive. I don't think so lorh. if I remain silent doesn't mean that I have to believe in everything you say right? I mean like, do I have to sound it out that 'yes, you are right and I am wrong'? especially over little details. oh my goodness. me being sensitive? or you being ridiculous?

ok. enough about all these. me life nowadays...

hrm, next week going to have econs tutorial replacement for week 13. basically because the tutor is not going to be around. and the thing is, I have to prepare the past year exam script beforehand. oh my shen, how long has it been since I last read any exam paper? *cannot count* heh, and now I have to try and get back the exam feeling. this sucks.

all the units are going into revision stage soon. meaning that I should seriously start exam preparations. I mean like, I can now literally count my days to doon. and then I am still not started with the preparations yet. oh gosh, how?

oh crap. I am like so stuck in this post. hence I am going to end it here. chao!

oops, suppose to mention dajie. hrm, next semester I think it will be good to arrange classes that are somehow of the similar time. as for tutor, I agree that we ought to test out various tutors. see how larh, probably the time slots are easier to be arranged. who knows? now that we have ample space what... haha. but hor, I want a 3/4 day timetable!!! ok, that's a must. if not I want to pengsan larh.

oh yar, dajie... must thank her here because she gave me the econs past year exam script which she 'mis-printed'. yup yup, thanks for saving my trouble in logging into MUSO and printing it our. haha, and thanks to my sotongified memory, she had to walk in and out of the hostel for don't know how many times. oh yar, also due to my sotongified memory, now then I know who aiyeen is. haha, what a sotong.

new word invented: sotong-ified. *roll on the floor laughing*

and I am very grateful for 'Now Blogger saves your drafts automatically'.

There's a need for me to blog. simply because I haven't been blogging for so many days.

ups and downs. emo-ing? I don't know. all I know is that these days I get real sensitive. self-protection? probably. somehow I just feel achieved if I get to argue my point right. but I know this is so not me. I mean like, normally I am not like that. I don't argue so much. I don't argue with people most of the time. unless things get really off track, then probably I will sound. but seriously, I don't argue my way through. that's so not me.

I sense that there's some changes within me. oh no. I think its from bad to worst. my character and personality is getting so wierd that I don't even know myself now. this is so terrible. I am afraid that I turn into someone that I dislike. oh man, please tell me if you think that I am changing into a different person. I need that constant reminder.

probably not so much of self-protection gua. hrm... come to think of it, maybe larh. just need that comfort zone so that I can feel comfortable in it. its so tiring to enter other's zone. its easier to create one of your own and just stay in there. I just want to rest. I am tired. a while more, slightly longer, just let me stay at this position for a while more and I will be normal. just let me sa jiao for a while more. a little longer and I will be alright.

ok. I confirm that I am emo-ing. haha, such a wierd person I am. oh my tian. what the hell am I talking?

sleepy. all I need is just a comfortable environment and position to rest. sleep and relaxation is just all I need. let me regain my normality. let me rest for a while.

replenish my energy and strive hard for exams! jiayou jiayou jiayou!

I'm sorry for throwing tantrums. flared-up because so many things happened. sorry.

my labtop is giving me a little peoblem these days. so cacat. but determined to solve it on my own, I decided to read up the owner's manual. heh, and then I realise certain things, you must believe in yourself. because you never know how easy things can get. obviously, you won't even know what's going on if you don't do it hands-on!

accounting practise set left. haven't started the copying. I am procrustinating. that's bad. but I have so many things to do other than that. oh my tian, why life is busy yet not busy? meaningless yet meaningful?

went out with vien for lunch. haha, so long time never see her. and went shopping. oh yes, I needed that a lot. mwahaha, bought a few pieces of clothings, just to refresh my wardrobe. heh, and the levi's jeans is nice! coz got stars embroided at the back pocket...

lunched at shakey's. nice pizza, better than pizza hut. mwahaha, just that we didn't realise that the soup was self-service. haha. anyhow, ended a little early coz we were both rushing for time. haha, and it totally feels like life in singapore. I miss those days.

appa 11 tentatively on 14th july right? hrm, probably will go together with vien. then can meet up with everybody! playing for alumni? don't ask me. I don't have the confidence that I can even play a single note on the instrument. and only pro people go for alumni. haha, see larh, if I shuang shuang then I go try try. but I still think being in the audience is nice, although I miss that feeling on stage.

honest. straightforward. direct. close to me. don't know why, these words just rings in my mind. heh. my expectations towards my friends? erm, then probably I am just expecting too much ba. but why can't we expect something from our friends? I mean like, is being decisive a high expectation? maybe I am just being sensitive.

happy mother's day!

yet another random post. emo-ing right now.

da jia hao!

heh, finished my managing assignment this morning. printed it out and realised that it was 7am. wOw. I actually stayed up for the night to finish the assignment leh!!! great sense of achievement. however, I didn't do the title page... and at the end of the whole thing, I reviewed what I've written and I realise that the whole thing doesn't make any sense.

ok. this is so demotivating. but don't care larh. I am like finished with my assignment and I am freed! now only left with accounting practise set which I only need to copy over all my answers. shouldn't take a long time right?

erm... having alvin chan's lesson in 20 mins time. and this will be the only lesson that I will be attending out of the 4 scheduled. all thanks to that assignment. lalala... anyway, I am just here to express by gan dong and my de jiang gan yan. haha.

no matter what, I will not look back and regret. I know it doesn't make any sense, that's why I should prepare myself to accept whatever grades that I deserve. bless me!

honestly speaking, I am suppose to be thinking of The Body Shop and L'Oreal and the takeover and the managing theories and the management functions now. as usual, not having the right mood to think about all those. so went around blog surfing. went to k wee's, jia jun's, ivy's and kexin's. so emotional now, so must blog. mwahaha.

have to start with kexin's blog. got something rather meaningful and close to me from there. here goes:

'Since the moment you chose to enter the gates of ny, you chose to enter the battle. Since you entered, since you chose, win it and have no regrets, because there's no more chance to return.'

this statement sparked off all my feelings and my memories. I begin to think back to all the good old days in nanyang. I would say, life won't be complete in nanyang if I didn't enter nycb. if you ask me why, I think I need 4 years to tell you the reason behind it and n years to explain to you about the reasons. its just so close to my heart. I still feel the passion that is within me.

I miss my instrument. I miss my section. it seems like yesterday that I just clicked upon nycb as my first cca option. I chose it myself. that left-click just didn't mean that much at that particular point of time. but for now, I am glad that I clicked on the correct item. I am just so glad for choosing nycb and nothing else. I am really glad.

being in the section, in the band, it is definately a once in a lifetime thing. like now, I can't possibly go back to where I've came from. but the enthusiasm, the passion and the love for it, those stays within me forever. growing from that innocent little girl in secondary one to that section leader in secondary four, seriously, I would say, many things happened.

but its also because of all these, I learnt how to stand strong, how to improve myself, how to handle stress, how to cope with inter-human relationships, how to do this, how to do that. most importantly, I learnt that once you get involved into music, you're into it. there's no way to escape, because you are just in it.

two SYFs. ups and downs. stress and destress. junior to senior. victoria concert hall to singapore conference hall. fate of the gods to seventh night of july. kiaying and judy to eugenia and me. so clear yet so blur. yesterday to today. everything seems to happen so recent but has been in history for so long. I remember everything, every single detail that comes together with it.

true friends that I've made in nycb. great seniors, nice juniors and wonderful batchmates. thank you! I will always remember all the happy times we had, all the emo talks, all the play play times and of course, some of the misunderstanding that were created and dissolved in a don't-know-how manner.

all in all, nycb was really a great experience in my life. I miss it so much. probably I should just be back for alumni in appassionata this year. and yet everything will be different. the band that I've came from, it will never be the same again.

ok, talking about secondary, I would like to mention this good friend of mine. ivy leow!!! hey buddy, I hope that I can really sit around and talk to you for days and nights lorh. somehow I am amazed by our relationship. its like so miraculous. miraculously you entered my life. miraculously you are the one that is still in rather close contact with me right now. heh, I don't know what is going on in your life exactly, but I would like to let you know that you have a friend down here that will stay by your side forever. no matter what, no matter the sky drop down or there's no food left for you and me, I will always be there. =)

some things, just so hard to be typed in words. like feelings. I really don't know how to express my feelings right now. just luan. and I should go on with my managing before my labtop goes out of battery and I cry for my unfinished assignment.

jiajun. there's so much that I would like to tell you and there's so many questions that I want to question you. wait till I am done with my assignments...

I think I am seriously screwed for managing assignment this time.

chosen Body Shop as the organisation that I am going to write about. found out news like being bought over by L'Oreal, threatened by peace organisations... bla bla bla... but then I figure its all wrong! all these happened long time back. like the takeover one... it happened on my 17th birthday. oh my shen... how?

anyway, I am sick. yeah, and basically its nothing to be happy about. because I am struggling to complete my managing assignment which is due on friday. what more, my body temperature is going hair wire. that's all thanks to the econs assignment which made me 'boil' in my study room on sunday, therefore causing me to constantly stay in the drowsy mode these days.

oh man, the weather these days are really bad larh. I mean like, last week it rained everyday. in fact, I think those raining days sustained for almost half a month's time. and then these 3 days, not even a single drop of rain is coming down from the sky. I can feel that there's much water in the clouds, but somehow it is just not raining. pardon me, because I did not do geography since secondary 3, for any wrong information stated. but anyhow, I am getting a little worried, because I know once it starts to rain, everywhere will be flooded.

haiz, the weather, the assignment, the stress, the sick. everything is making me feel so down.

once I am done with assignments, I am so going to unwind everything!!! rarrrRRR!!!

oh my goodness... I am so frustrated by the stupid managing assignment.

should I be doing on The Body Shop or Nestle?

haiz...

whoever that reads this blog, please go and do the true friend test linked to this blog.

thank you!

jiayou jiayou jiayou!

Many people will walk in and out of your life,
but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.

This is a nice quote. don't you agree with me?

mwahaha... I so gan dong!!! coz once again I finished my econs assignment! yay, and this time, I did it without panicking... heh, that's why I even more gan dong!!!

anyway, this time I am determined not to let alvin chan have the chance to luan luan deduct my marks. haha, at least not the 1 mark for excess word count. reference... I don't think I made any mistakes larh. as for diagrams, this time I specially put in title. so he better not disappoint me lorh...

still very gan dong, considering the fact that I have only been working on this assignment for 2 days. haha, I don't deny the fact that it is last minute work again. because I busy marh... haha, so whatever it is, this time I am going to accept whatever grade that is given. even if I fail, I don't think I will be down, because I took note of all my mistakes and ensured that I am not making them again. yup. bye microeconomics assignment!

and I realise that after this term, I won't have anything to do with economics until tentatively year 3 sem 1. yay!!! *cheers!*

managing people and organisation, assignment 2! report!!! here I come!!!

but before that, let me upload some pictures that I took on friday before managing replacement lecture. by the way, I attended the lecture that was scheduled on 1730 to 1900. whoa, this is so remarkable, considering that I am actually having LECTURE and not slacking away in school until 7PM leh!!! mwahaha. and then we went to subang parade and had swensen's and went to carrefour!!! haha. the surprising thing is that I reached home at approx 1045 that night. mwahaha...

ok... pictures time!

oh yar, wasn't able to take any pictures of the swensen's ice-cream that I had for dinner. mainly because of my laupok phone battery that went flat after the lecture. haiz... I ought to change a phone!!!
















ok, after econs tutorial which ended at 3 pm, me and dajie came to the cafeteria. and the only reason behind slacking in the cafeteria was that the stoopid guard only let me in at 6pm. so no choice but to sacrifice my beauty sleep and sit around lorh... haha. and for the first time, I bought the bubble tea in school! heh, and I specifically requested for a blue straw to go with my pink strawberry milk tea! nice!!! and dajie had an orange straw in her green honeydew milk tea! then, we were so lucky that we had the last two servings of pearl!!! haha...

so after buying bubble tea, we decided to get popiah. oh yar, thanks to dajie for buying the popiah!!! mwahaha... this is my first time eating fried popiah because it is quite unique looking. heh, its like those kind of fried fish fillets when I first saw it. haha... anyway, it tasted good. yeah, that's the main point. yup, so the following are two real CONTRASTING pictures! obviously we were a little hungry at that point of time, especially seated in front of food and drinks...

mwahaha... that's all for this post larh. I apologize if any of you all went hungry after reading this post. haha, just like the last picture, we finished it all!!! lala... so if you want, you are allowed to go and get food now... mwahaha...

oh yar... I just created a True Friend Test. those who are interested can come try it out at:
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hope to see your score appearing soon!

I admit that I blog a lot.
this is why you are seeing this post.
heh, and I just posted one not long ago.
there's a reason why I changed the number of post to be shown to 3 instead of 1.

ok, I blog a lot. that's the main point. and I believe that has to do with the fact that I am crappy.

my mind is currently at the blank stage right now. normally when I blog, there's so many things that I want to talk about. however, this time, its not because I have nothing to blog about. its because I have so many things going in my mind that I can't decide on which one I should talk about. heh.

ok, this shall be the first post that I am going to put pictures. and together with these pictures... I am going to tell you what happened during labour day, which is suppose to be officially a public holiday. and the main point to note, is that I did ASSIGNMENT during this holistic day. that's something great to be noted. because up till now I am like still not believing the fact that I sacrificed my day for assignment.

ok. I waited outside the hostel guard until 12 o'clock before I can go in. haha, and I went to the new campus parking. trust me, the new campus looks so nice. I hope there are enough parking for us next time. and I like that space right in front of the bridge connecting from the parking to the campus. haha. feel like going early everyday next time just to book that place!!!

hrm, so shall show all the photos. all these are taken in the midst of doing the RM145 accounting assignment that's entitled Pete's plumbing. believe or not, I vomited my soul out for it. and I am still working on the reports. even though there's only the last bit left... you know larh... I will dragggggg.........

pictures time!


mwahaha. somehow these three pictures link. and do I need to mention the story?











dajie looks shock!
















haha. this is david. obviously, he's eating pringles. and this unglam photo is depicting a scene where we were all working so hard that we need food to de-stress!





ok. that's for this round. will put more photos in next time!

Am I a perfectionist?
I don't think I am one.

when I have the ability to make things perfect, I don't bother about it. normally after that I will start regretting. haha. so wierd. I mean like, what's the point of looking back and regretting when you didn't even bother about it when you have the ability? I know that, I understand. but somehow I just can't be bothered.

Assume that in 5 years time you want to be a self-employed professional. Project the SWOT that may affect this strategy.

ok, the above statement is my managing tutorial homework this week. I think this is the most interesting class on friday, even though its the most work to be prepared one. haha... hard to believe, management leh... but I still think so. accounting... all thanks to that curly hair girl that looks like anna fu, I am starting to get real bored. only the part doing practical questions is challenging. and then business stats comp lab. haha, recently I start to know when to listen and when not to listen larh. so it explains why I always blog during that slot. econs... speechless.

a bit the lost hope in my econs. because of the failure? nope. not entirely on that incident. last time in pre-u I also fail econs most of the time what. haha, probably econs is just not my cup of tea larh. heh. what to do? still have to complete it for my core subjects...

starting to not know what I am posting. one factor is because I am stressed up by my assignments. another factor is because I don't know what to talk about apart from all my assignments and my school work. and the latter is closely linked to the first factor. haha, being to engrossed in school work? not to that extend. just pushing myself real hard to meet the due dates. not enjoying during the process, but I hope that I can be contented with the outcomes.

standing strong.
I am not going to fall.
at least, not because of assignments.
at this point of time, I start to realise that
some things just mean so much to me.

if I had the chance to hold it,
I will not let it go.